Lyubov

The Course of True Love: Chapter 43

Sun, 26 Apr 2009 12:30:38 GMT

Title: The Course of True Love
Pairing: Alex/Olivia
Fandom: Conviction/Law and Order SVU
Rating: G
Disclaimer: All characters are the property of Dick Wolf and NBC (except for the few I created).
Author's Notes: This story is meant to fill in the gaps for what wasn't shown on Conviction but very well could have happened; however, it begins before Conviction premiered in 2006 and will end after the finale.
Summary: Alex has returned to New York City and been promoted to Bureau Chief. Will she keep her promises to Olivia or will she decide that her career is more important?

Chapter 43: Null and Void

The next morning it seemed as if Alex’s alarm went off too soon. With a groan, she threw back the covers and dragged herself out of bed. Robert mumbled, “Sweetie, what time is it?”

“6:30,” Alex replied, stifling a yawn. She shivered. “I can’t wait until the weather warms up.”

Robert got out of bed and walked over to her. He took her in his arms and placed a kiss on her lips. “I’ll go downstairs and put on a pot of coffee while I’m reading the paper. I’ll have a cup waiting for you by the time you finish with your shower.”

“Thanks, honey,” Alex replied, stroking his cheek and smiling. She walked into the bathroom and shut the door. She stood over one of the sinks and placed her hands flat on the smooth granite countertop. As she looked in the mirror, she realized that just 24 hours ago she had been standing in the same position in her old apartment. Now instead of feeling excitement and hope about having Olivia as her girlfriend again, she just felt empty and sad.

She turned the faucet on and splashed warm water on her face, hoping it would not just warm her skin but also her spirit. The water dripped off her face but she still felt cold. She dropped her nightgown to the floor and stepped into the shower. Maybe that would do the trick. She turned the handles and hoped the hot spray would wash away the emptiness and the dull ache she felt inside. She knew that ache, that longing was for Olivia and if she was to move on with her life, it couldn’t be there.

Each time she went back on her plans to stay away from Olivia, it made things that much more difficult for her. But this time it was ten times harder because she’d taken a much greater step in detaching herself from Olivia by moving in with Robert and she’d attached herself to her over the past few days even more than she had previously. She’d emoted things to Olivia about her feelings on Mike’s death and her own traumas that she refused to tell Robert. She had also told Olivia that she got tired of running from herself, she made her miss being herself, and that Robert didn’t compare to her. With those admissions, she now felt even guiltier about living this lie again. Furthermore, she’d made her new life with Robert null and void with not only those statements but all the events of the weekend, so she felt like she’d have to start from scratch again. What hold does this woman have on me? Alex thought, shaking her head as she soaped her skin. If things had worked as planned, she would’ve left Robert in a heartbeat and she’d be in Olivia’s arms now. Then later in the evening, they’d be cuddling together with warm mugs of tea and telling each other about their respective days as they planned their future together. She sighed heavily. In such a short period of time, she’d gained and lost so much. Olivia had taken her to new heights so crashing back to the ground so suddenly would only steepen her climb to recovery. Now she knew she would have to depend on work more than ever to change her focus. If she couldn’t have control over her personal life she’d exercise it the one place she knew she did—the office.

**************

“So you think the jury will buy the abuse story?” she asked Jim as they walked out of the elevator that morning onto the 7^th floor. She scanned her card and walked through the turnstiles.

“Depends on how good of a liar the father is,” Jim said, scanning his and following a few paces behind her.

“Well even if he’s a pro it doesn’t take the bloody bat out of the kid’s hands.”

“He’s 14 and weighs 100 pounds, Alexandra. My guess is the jury won’t be inclined to send this kid to prison for the rest of his life.”

Alex smirked. “The jury or the prosecutor?” she asked, stopping outside the breakroom.

Jim had turned his head to look at Jessica as she walked across the floor of the breakroom but he turned his attention back to Alex. “I’m ready to take this all the way.”

Alex glanced inside at Jessica before answering. She wondered if they had something going on. “All right, offer him man one.” She pointed her finger at him and said, “But he’s gotta do real time, eight years minimum.”

“All right. I’ll make the deal,” Jim responded.

“All right, see ya,” Alex said, walking off. She greeted people on the way to her office. Looking at her watch, she wondered where her assistant was. She had a number of things for her to do and she couldn’t afford to get a late start and be behind schedule because of her. Almost as soon as she’d had time to unlock her door, put down her briefcase, and hang up her coat, her desk phone started ringing. Instead of sighing, she strangely found the loud pitch comforting. She knew there would be many long days ahead, but she was refreshed with new vigor and more than prepared to take on whatever was thrown her way.

**************

By Friday, things had seemed to mellow out a bit in Alex’s personal life. Apologizing to Robert for their fight had eliminated considerable tension in their relationship and the atmosphere at home was lighter. He had reverted to the charming nature he exhibited when they had first started dating. He’d even had dinner waiting for her when she got home the past couple nights.

However, work was another story. The pressure at the office was not letting up and things had been particularly hectic since she’d lost one of her deputy bureau chiefs. The bureau was already loaded with cases and even more were piling in. One in particular had stuck out in her mind all week long—and that was the case of Evan Foye, who was being tried for killing his older brother for incessantly bullying him. The reason it was hard to shake was because it reminded her of a case she had tried while at SVU.

“You ready for your closing?” she asked Jim that morning. “I know, I know. It’s a tough one.”

“Tough? Are you kidding me? This ‘A’ student, ex-cub scout is a damn assassin. New York will definitely be a safer place without ol’ Evan Foye skulking in the shadows,” he snapped sarcastically.

“You did everything you could—”

“Don’t worry, I’ll get us a conviction.”

Alex frowned. “That is not what I’m saying!”

“Of course it is,” Jim accused, stepping toward her. He lowered his voice, “It’s why you wouldn’t let me kick this to juvie, right?”

Alex threw her head to the side in annoyance and let out a low, “Ugh.”

Jim continued, “Because someday you wanna talk about what a hardass prosecutor you were, how you had to make the tough decisions, how you gave no quarter—”

“It’s office policy,” Alex argued.

“Subject to the bureau chief’s discretion,” Jim retorted, holding up his index finger.

“He killed his brother!” She looked around and then turned back to him. “With a bat! What should we do? Throw him a parade?”

Jim laughed scornfully. “Do you actually believe what you say or do you just like hearing yourself say it?”

“Both,” Alex responded, grinning wickedly. “That’s why I’m the boss.” She turned around and walked off, feeling quite pleased with herself. She knew it just fueled his anger, but she didn’t care because she didn’t have time for his shenanigans again. Last week he had accused her of selling him out on the deal with Escobar, which is the same thing she’d accused her former boss Charlie Philips of doing in the case of Elias Barrera. Now this week he had the nerve to challenge her authority again. But it was ironic how the roles were reversed for the second time in a row.

As odd as it was, she knew Jim was right, just like she’d been right about Jeremy Brice, another juvenile who had been involved in a murder. She could tell herself that Evan was more culpable for the murder than Jeremy was, but the fundamentals of the cases remained the same. Just like Jim had wanted Evan to be tried as a juvenile instead of an adult, she had wanted to do the same for Jeremy and had adamantly opposed Liz Donnelly and the DA’s decision. She had even gone so far as asking Liz how much of a sycophant she had to be in the new administration, and now she realized she had become the type of person she formerly hated. When Jim had pointed out that it was subject to her discretion, she could hear Liz’s voice in her head: …we prosecute juveniles at the discretion of the district attorney. He made the call, you do your job. She was forced to participate in the prosecution of Jeremy as an adult, so Jim would have to follow orders under her command that he didn’t want to do as well.

She knew the differences in her behavior and logic now as opposed to then all came with the territory of being promoted to bureau chief and playing the political game. When Liz later felt guilty about destroying Jeremy on the stand and Alex had told her she’d done her job, Liz had said: Careful, Alex. You’re beginning to sound like me—disillusioned before your time. After all she’d been through and witnessed, that certainly rang true now. But that was just it—she had become so accustomed to doing her job as chief, as a Cabot, and as a politically-minded woman instead of just following her conscience.

Once she returned to her office, her eye caught the painting Olivia had given her for Christmas. She couldn’t stop her heart from dropping a little in her chest. There the painting hang, a reminder of the happiness she’d so recently shared with a woman she felt she’d lost for good. She remembered how excited she’d been when she’d taken the wrapping off and first laid eyes on it. It had been the perfect ending to an absolutely magical evening. Now they may never share another Christmas Eve again.

She shook herself out of her thoughts and sat down at her desk to check her email. She was glad her back was now facing the painting. But even though she couldn’t see it, she could feel it looming in the background just like her memories of Olivia, of what her life once was. Still, she couldn’t bear to take it down. It was one of the few emblems of their love that she hadn’t tucked away somewhere in her old apartment and she secretly liked having this particular connection to her in her office. Besides, there was something very special about the last gifts she’d received from her and she didn’t want the memories behind the painting or yoga mat to ever evanesce.

**************

“Liv, what’s up with you?” Elliot asked in the squad car.

“Nothing,” she lied.

“Come on,” Elliot prodded. “You’ve been broody since the middle of the week. Before that you were on top of the world. What gives?”

“Certainly not Alex,” she mumbled.

Elliot furrowed his brow. “What do you mean?”

“She wanted to be back with me, but she still wants us to keep our relationship a secret.”

“You’ve done it before, so what’s the problem?”

“That’s exactly the problem. I’ve done it before and I am determined not to do it again. She has to give a little, too.”

“So you want her to out herself and potentially ruin her career?”

“I should be more important to her than her career,” Olivia snapped.

“You don’t think you’re being a bit selfish?”

“Each time we’ve been together, I’ve put up with her terms and agreed to stay in the closet. It’s time she agrees to mine now.”

“Why don’t the two of you compromise?”

“Compromise is kinda hard when she doesn’t want to take any steps toward coming out.”

“Maybe she’ll get there over time.”

“Well, I’ve been waiting forever. I even asked her if we could go to the Crime Prevention Commission dinner on Sunday. She immediately panicked.”

“Liv…that’s big.”

“It’s not like she suggested an alternative,” Olivia muttered.

“Well, try putting yourself in her shoes. She has a lot on the line,” Elliot replied. “She has to be scared.”

Olivia took a sip of her coffee and turned to face him. “You don’t think I’m scared of having my heart trampled again?”

Elliot sighed. “I know you are. I’m just saying that you both have to look at it from the other’s point of view.”

Olivia rolled her eyes. “I’m done allowing her to play ping-ping with my emotions. I’m just gonna cut my losses.”

Elliot leaned back in the driver’s seat and looked out the window. “Well, you have to decide what’s a greater sacrifice of your happiness—dating Alex in the closet or not having her at all.”

“Not dating her cuts a lot of stress outta my life.”

Elliot turned his head and looked at her concernedly. “You sure about that?”

Olivia avoided his question and pointed at a guy through the glass. “Hey, I think that’s our perp. Let’s get a move on.”

Elliot studied her for a couple more seconds and then cranked the car back up. Pulling away from the curb, he said, “Don’t give up.”

Olivia mumbled something under her breath and took another sip of coffee. She wondered if Zoe would be free that weekend…

Chapter 64

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 03:05:01 GMT

Title: Nichya (No One's)
Pairing: Alex/Olivia
Fandom: Law and Order SVU
Rating: R
Disclaimer: All characters are the property of Dick Wolf and NBC (except for the few I created).
Author's Notes: Olivia's look is from first season SVU; Alex's look is without the bangs. Nichya is Russian for "No One's."
Summary: Alternate Universe (A/U)--Sequel to "Fear Is the Enemy." Alex and Olivia are truly no one's but each other's, and they vow to let nothing tear them apart. But how long can they keep their relationship from their parents? What happens when unexpected obstacles are thrown into their path?

Chapter 64: What’s Done in the Dark

The following afternoon, Abbie wasn’t feeling much better. Even though Lexie had tried to convince her that a bit of sunlight and fresh air might help, she was too embarrassed by her facial injuries to go out in public. So her girlfriend had reluctantly met up with a couple of their friends and gone to the beach without her. She’d never felt so miserable in her life. Not only was her left eye swollen shut, but her cheek and nose were still swollen, too.

Throwing the sheets angrily off herself, she summoned the strength to force herself out of bed and slowly walked over to get her laptop. Since the rest of my Spring Break is ruined, I might as well just surf the net, she bitterly thought. She winced in pain as the pressure on her leg caused it to start throbbing, but she managed to hobble back to the bed. With her laptop carefully balanced on her lap, she grabbed her ice pack and held it to her face.

She decided to check Myspace. Even though she knew both Alex and Olivia’s profiles were private, she also knew that Alex had added Lexie. Luckily for her, she had watched Lexie type in her password that morning. Smiling to herself, she logged onto her girlfriend’s account so she could view Alex’s profile.

Her smile quickly faded when she read her “Who I’d like to meet” section and saw that Alex had written, “I’ve already met the one. Her name is Olivia Benson and she is the hottest, most amazing girlfriend in the world. I couldn’t ask for more.” Abbie put her finger down her throat in a gagging motion. She read her comments and groaned as she saw the ones from Olivia. Just a few of them were:

“I love you, too, baby! Only a few more hours before you’re in my arms again.”

“Hey, just doing Trig homework. It’s so fucking lame. But my TI-86 def makes it easier, LOL. Instead of solving cosine angles, I’d much rather solve this: U+me=x”

“Aly, where are you, babe? My mom just left (finally!) and I’m about to go crazy waiting for you to get here! P.S. That ‘no trespassing’ sign on my yard is for Tweety. LOL, jk.”

“Happy birthday, sexy. My name might not be Fred Flinstone, but after your party, I sure will make your bed rock.”

“I think we broke the backseat of your Mercedes last night!”

“Psst! Did you get the little love note I left in your locker? Maybe I shouldn’t have attached it to that Nestle Crunch haha. You probably ate it!”

“Baby, no one will ever come between us. In the words of t.A.T.u., ‘They don’t know. They can’t see who we are. Fear is the enemy. Hold on tight, hold on to me. ’Cause tonight, it’s all about us.’”

Not wanting to read anymore, she went to her pictures section next. Alex had made a photo album especially for the break. As Abbie looked through her pictures, she rolled her eyes. Are their lips permanently glued to each other’s or what? she thought in disgust. When she saw them laughing and playing in the water, she wished she could snap the surfboards in half. Upon seeing photos from the previous night of Olivia standing in the water and holding Alex, she actually let out a growl. The caption said, “She sweeps me off my feet!”

The “Sweet 16” album only made her angrier. Alex was absolutely glowing and she thought she looked so beautiful in all her dresses. She even had a few videos from the party. Abbie couldn’t help but feel jealous of Olivia as she saw her smiling wide next to Alex. “Alex should be with me, not you, bitch,” she grumbled.

Once she’d looked at some other albums, she closed out the page and checked her email. After reading a few of them, she logged out and checked the fake account she’d made to send the pictures to Olivia’s mom. To her delight, there was a reply from Serena waiting for her:

I don’t know who you are, but I am very curious as to how you procured these photographs. I’m not expecting you to reveal your true identity, but I feel that as a mother, I have a right to know what is going on with my only daughter. I also feel that you opened this door because you are privy to a certain extent of information that my daughter and Alex aren’t willing to divulge. So what more is there to this situation? Has Olivia been involved with any other girls?

Ignoring the threats Olivia and Alex had made, Abbie decided to reply. Since Serena already knew what was going on, she felt that the damage had already been done. Besides, at the moment she was more concerned with revenge than Lexie finding out she’d been unfaithful. Abbie Carmichael was not one to go down without a fight. She knew she had a lot less to lose than they did.

To my knowledge, Alex and Olivia have been dating for several months, starting with last semester. They claim to be very much in love and I have witnessed them being affectionate in several public places, including school. They act like they don’t care who’s watching. Dr. Elizabeth Olivet can vouch for this. I have been told that Olivia has a bit of a reputation with the ladies, but Alex has certainly been her longest relationship.

To seal the deal, she logged back into Lexie’s myspace and returned to Alex’s profile. She saved several pictures from her albums and then inserted them into the body of the email. As a lasting gesture she screen-captured her entire page. She thought Serena would especially be repulsed when she read all the gushy comments from Olivia.

As she clicked the “send” button, her smile spread. “You have no idea who you’ve fucked with, Olivia Benson,” she declared.

**************

Serena Benson had office hours that day until 5:30. After her last student left, she decided to check her email before going home. When she saw that her mystery mailer had replied, she felt apprehensive. Taking a deep breath, she opened the email. She was incensed by the time she had read Alex’s profile and viewed the pictures. In a way, she wished she hadn’t because she’d never felt sicker in her life.

When she’d found a condom wrapper beside Olivia’s bed a couple years prior, she had grounded her for three weeks. Her worst fear had been that she would become pregnant because she considered teenagers irresponsible when it came to sex, and she’d thought it would only be a matter of time before Olivia slipped up. Now she deemed pregnancy a lesser evil than this.

“I cannot believe Olivia is a filthy little dyke!” she muttered. She felt like a fool to discover that they had been open with their affection for months in so many places, but the wool had been pulled over her eyes. All she had had were suspicions without confirmation. How much do I really know about my own daughter? she wondered sadly.

She picked up the phone book and found Dr. Olivet’s home number. Although she knew she’d just be torturing herself more, she wanted to validate what the stranger said and find out as much as possible before constructing a game plan.

“Hello?” Dr. Olivet answered.

“Yes, Dr. Olivet? This is Dr. Serena Benson, mother of Olivia Benson. I wanted to schedule an appointment with you sometime next week to discuss my daughter’s progress in your class.”

“It’s nice to hear from you, Dr. Benson! Olivia is a wonderful student and it’s a pleasure having her again this semester. Hold on a second while I check my datebook.” After a few short moments, she said, “I’m free next Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday after school lets out. Which day and time would be best for you?”

“How about Monday at 4:00?” Serena asked.

Dr. Olivet wrote it down and replied, “Yes, that will be fine. I look forward to seeing you then.”

“Ok, it was nice talking to you. Have a good evening,” Serena said.

She gathered her documents and put them in her attaché case. She knew she would have a long night of grading essays, and it didn’t help that she was burdened with new knowledge of her daughter’s behavior. I need a drink, she thought. She knew she shouldn’t—especially since she had an AA meeting the next evening—but she felt a burning urge that would only get bigger until she satisfied it. She thought it was the only way she could flush the images and proclamations of love out of her head.

She turned out the lights to her office, locked up, and walked to her car. Even though she wanted to solely blame Alex, she couldn’t because of Olivia’s past with girls. Is she just doing this to rebel? she wondered. She didn’t understand why she would want to her hurt her this way. Maybe she’s just confused.

Regardless of the reasons, she didn’t like it and was determined to stop it. And she wasn’t going to let anyone stand in her way.

Chapter 63 (Part 2)

Fri, 23 Jan 2009 04:01:25 GMT

Title: Nichya (No One's)
Pairing: Alex/Olivia; Serena/Casey
Fandom: Law and Order SVU
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: All characters are the property of Dick Wolf and NBC (except for the few I created).
Author's Notes: Olivia's look is from first season SVU; Alex's look is without the bangs. Nichya is Russian for "No One's."
Summary: Alternate Universe (A/U)--Sequel to "Fear Is the Enemy." Alex and Olivia are truly no one's but each other's, and they vow to let nothing tear them apart. But how long can they keep their relationship from their parents? What happens when unexpected obstacles are thrown into their path?

Several hours later, they were all sitting outside a restaurant. Alex took a bite of her pizza and a swig of Olivia’s coke. With a lopsided grin, Olivia looked at her and said, “Baby, your meal came with a drink, too.”

Alex smiled and shrugged. “I know. But I just wanted to try yours. It tastes better.”

Serena smirked. “Came from the same fountain, Alex.”

“I know! But my drink didn’t come with Olivia Benson goodness!”

Casey shook her head. “You’ve got it bad.”

Alex scoffed. “As if you don’t! I just saw you take a bite of Serena’s burger!”

Casey grinned. “I guess you’re rubbing off on me.”

“Well, I’m gonna take a bite of Casey’s taco,” Serena said, lifting it off her plate.

“In public?” Olivia asked with a smirk.

Serena slapped her forehead and blushed. “I forgot we have the residential perv here.”

Alex giggled. “I thought it was pretty funny.”

“You would,” Casey said, rolling her eyes and eating a couple of Serena’s fries.

Serena pulled a piece of chicken out of the taco. Not able to resist, Olivia commented, “Mmm…tastes like chicken!”

Serena almost choked on the chicken. “You’re so dirty!”

“Dirty would be this,” Alex said, reaching out to pinch Olivia’s nipple.

“Hey now!” Olivia protested, a hand immediately flying to her breast.

Casey looked at Serena. “This is exactly why those two can’t be trusted to walk around in bikinis.”

“I don’t even know if they can be trusted to surf in them either! Half the lesson was spent with those two doing God knows what under the water,” Serena replied.

“Liv was giving me pointers!” Alex said in their defense.

Serena snorted. “So what pointers was she giving when her hand was in the front of your bottoms?”

Alex blushed profusely. “She was helping with my balance!”

“You two should be locked in your room as punishment,” Serena said.

Casey gave her a look. “You wanna give them exactly what they want?”

Serena laughed and rolled her eyes. “You have a point.”

At that moment, Lexie spotted them and walked up to their table. Taking off her shades, she said, “Hey. Hate to interrupt like this, but do you guys know what happened to Abbie last night?”

Of course, they all feigned ignorance. “What do you mean?” Olivia asked as innocently as she could.

“Someone beat her up. She has a black eye, broken nose, and is covered head to toe in bruises. I’m so worried about her! She won’t tell me who did it and has been refusing to leave the room all day. So I decided to go out and pick her up some of her favorite food. Maybe that will lift her spirits.”

“Wow, that sounds terrible,” Serena said. “Why is she keeping it a secret?”

“I don’t know,” Lexie replied. “I kept pressing her to tell me and she just yelled at me and cried, so I gave up. It was all I could do to convince her to go to the ER last night. I thought maybe you guys had seen or heard something.”

“We were pretty occupied,” Alex informed her, smiling at Olivia. She turned to Lexie again and continued, “Know what I mean?”

“I doubt she wants to know,” Casey responded. “How I wish the walls were soundproof.”

“I can take a guess,” Lexie murmured, a slight smile curling at her lips. “Well, I guess I’ll let you get back to eating. If you find out anything, let me know, ok?”

“Ok,” they all answered.

Once Lexie had disappeared into the crowd, Serena smiled and said, “Good work, guys. She fell for it.”

“Good,” Alex replied in relief.

“What are we doing tonight?” Olivia asked, popping a piece of sausage in her mouth.

“We can go bowling,” Casey suggested.

“Then we can go for a walk on the beach,” Alex said, looking at Olivia lovingly.

Serena ran a hand through Casey’s hair. “That sounds really romantic.”

Alex bit into Olivia’s pizza. Olivia looked at her curiously. “Sweetie, you have a slice, too.”

“‘But it didn’t come with Olivia Benson goodness!’” Casey said in her best Alex voice.

Alex threw a piece of pepperoni at her. “Hey! You’re just as whipped about Serena as I am about Liv!”

Casey grinned. “That I am. It’s just so much fun teasing you two, though.”

Olivia fed Alex some more of her pizza and said, “Babe, she can’t help it. She is Serena’s ‘little snuggy-wuggy’ after all.”

Alex almost choked on the pizza, she was laughing so hard. Casey turned beet red and covered her face with her hands. Serena rubbed her back and said, “Honey, don’t be embarrassed!” She kissed her shoulder.

“Be very embarrassed!” Alex laughed, picking up a mozzarella stick and feeding it to Olivia.

Casey uncovered her face and retorted, “Oh, that’s just swell coming from 16 and 17-year-olds who refer to their nipples as ‘pokies.’”

Serena giggled. “Ooh, burn!”

“Damn right and I’d do it again!” Alex responded, arms folded proudly.

Olivia burst into laughter. Patting Alex on the back, she said, “You tell her, baby!”

Casey laughed, too, in spite of herself. She shook her head and took a sip of her drink. “You guys are nuts.”

Olivia took Alex’s hand and stood up to empty their trash. “It’s exactly why you love us,” she said with a smirk.

**************

“The night air feels so good!” Alex exclaimed, throwing her head back and spreading her arms. A light breeze lifted her hair and the moonlight added a soft shimmer to her strands.

Olivia spun around as the water washed over her feet. Ever since she was a little girl, she’d loved the feel of wet sand between her toes. “I wish we lived on the beach!”

Alex stopped her from spinning and planted a huge kiss on her lips. “We will this summer!”

Olivia pouted. “Not when we have to go to camp. You go to cheerleading camp a week before I go to basketball camp. I’ll be all lonely.”

Alex gave her another kiss. “I’ll send you plenty of videos. We can even webcam at night. And I’ll call you whenever I get spare time.”

“Are you guys gonna stay in the summer house or something?” Serena asked.

Alex nodded excitedly. “Yeah. And you and Casey are welcome to visit anytime you like.”

Casey smiled. “Thanks, Alex.”

“How are you gonna get past your mom?” Serena asked Olivia.

Olivia linked her fingers with Alex’s and replied, “Alex and I will figure somethin’ out. But I’m not letting my mom ruin my summer.”

“Maybe you could tell her that you’ll be at some summer college program. Lots of rising seniors do them,” Casey suggested.

Alex grinned. “That actually sounds like a good idea.”

“Why don’t you do it for real?” Serena asked. “Rising juniors are often eligible, too, so you both could participate.”

“I don’t wanna spend half the summer doing homework,” Olivia answered. “I’m already gonna have to read a shitload of books for IB English.”

“Yeah, summer is supposed to be fun,” Alex agreed. “You only get to be 16 once.”

“So being 16 forever, that wouldn’t be so bad,” Serena mused, linking her arm through Casey’s and smiling up at her.

“Or being 17 forever,” Olivia chimed in.

“We’re all gonna miss you when you go off to college, Liv,” Casey said. “Our senior year will be so boring without you.”

Serena looked at Alex sympathetically. “And Alex here will have a constant pout on her face, I’m sure.”

“I don’t wanna think about it,” Alex said, a frown crossing her face.

Olivia scooped her up in her arms and gave her a kiss on the nose. “Sweetie, I won’t go far, I promise. And I’ll call you every night. You can even visit me on the weekends if you want.”

A slight smile crossed Alex’s face. “Really?”

“Of course, silly. Just because you won’t get to see me everyday doesn’t mean you can’t still hear from me everyday! Nothing else has to change in our relationship.”

Alex wrapped her arms around Olivia’s neck. “I guess I’m just afraid of losing you. Lots of couples break up when one person goes off to college.”

“You’ll never lose me,” Olivia promised. “I know our love will stand the test of time.”

“Aww,” Serena and Casey cooed in unison.

“I’m so lucky,” Alex said softly, smiling into her eyes.

Olivia smiled back at her and walked out into the water some. As gentle waves rose to her calves, she said, “Look out over the water. You see how you can’t see where it ends?”

“Yeah,” Alex answered.

“Take all that water and multiply it times infinity. That’s how much I love you.”

Tears pricked Alex’s eyes. “Oh, Liv. I feel the same way!” Holding Olivia’s face tenderly in her hands, she leaned down to capture her lips in a soft, passionate kiss.

“This is definitely a Kodak moment,” Casey whispered to Serena. She pulled her digital camera out of her pocket and snapped a couple pictures.

“Look how beautiful you two looked!” Serena gushed, showing them the photos once they’d returned to them.

“Aww, you have to send them to us!” Alex said.

“Yes, this is something to go in the next scrapbook for sure,” Olivia added, smiling happily. “The beach is absolutely gorgeous at night.”

“We should make a scrapbook,” Casey said to Serena. “We have some really good pics from the break already.”

“Are we gonna get our fakes made tomorrow?” Serena asked. “I really wanna check out some of the clubs.”

Olivia shrugged. “Sure.”

Alex grinned. “I’m excited about getting to go to my first lesbian club!”

Olivia pinched her cheek. “You are so cute.”

“Speaking of cute…” Casey began. She bent over and motioned for her girlfriend to hop on.

Alex slapped Olivia on the ass and said, “Assume the position.”

Serena laughed as she got on Casey’s back and wrapped her arms securely around her neck. “I love piggyback rides.”

“Me, too!” Alex replied, grabbing Olivia’s shoulders.

Olivia bounced Alex on her back. “You’re as light as a feather!”

Alex giggled. “You’re just really strong.”

“And fast!” Olivia said, running off with her. Casey was right behind her with Serena.

When Olivia stopped running, she flipped a squealing Alex over her shoulder. She held her waist to make sure her feet landed firmly on the ground. “Don’t even think about it!” Serena warned, quickly scrambling down from Casey.

Olivia tried not to laugh as she caught her breath. “That was good exercise, huh, Liv?” Casey asked.

“You bet,” Olivia answered.

Alex grabbed her hand and pulled them down on the sand. “At first I thought you were gonna pull me on top of you!” Olivia teased.

Alex grinned. “There will be plenty of time for that later.”

Serena and Casey joined them. “It’s so peaceful out here,” Casey said, crossing her legs underneath her.

“Yeah,” Serena agreed, laying her head on her shoulder.

Olivia leaned back on her hands. Alex situated herself between her legs and lay back against her chest. “Today was wonderful.”

“I couldn’t agree more,” Olivia replied, kissing the top of her head.

Nichya: Chapter 63 (Part 1)

Fri, 23 Jan 2009 03:56:28 GMT

Chapter 63: Endless

Olivia woke up to a tray being put across her lap. “Wakey, wakey,” Alex announced with a huge smile.

Olivia smiled and sat up carefully so as not to upset the tray. “Aww, you brought me breakfast!”

“Because you’re beautiful and positively lovely,” Alex said, stroking her hair. “I ordered your fave omelette. Ham, cheese, tomatoes, and chives.”

Olivia picked up her fork and dug into her omelette. “Mmm…this is divine!” Taking a bite of her sticky bun, she said, “Even better.”

“I know it would seem more authentic if I’d cooked it, but since we’re on vacation, this will have to do for now,” Alex replied, placing her own tray in her lap and pouring some syrup on her waffles.

Olivia threw a fresh strawberry into her mouth. “Are you tryna get me to stay in bed all day again?”

Alex laughed. “Only if we’re engaged in an intense lovefest.”

Olivia waggled her eyebrows. “I think that can be arranged.”

“Maybe we can begin after we go surfing,” Alex suggested. “You did promise Casey and Serena.”

“Maybe we can postpone the surfing until the afternoon,” Olivia said. “That gives us more time to play.”

“And gorge on yummy food,” Alex added, biting into a piece of sausage. She held it out to Olivia to take a bite, too.

Olivia wiped her mouth with a napkin and said, “Ooh, that’s really good! Tastes a little different, though. What kinda sausage is that?”

“Chicken and apple,” Alex said. “And try some of the chocolate waffles,” she added, cutting off a wedge and holding the fork out to her.

“Oh, wow!” Olivia replied. “Those are really good.”

“Have some more,” Alex insisted, cutting one of her waffles in half and putting it on Olivia’s plate.

“Want some of my omelette?” Olivia offered. “I think it’s too big for me to finish!”

“Sure,” Alex replied. She tasted some of it and then washed it down with some apple juice.

“I wish I could have breakfast like this every morning,” Olivia said.

Alex smiled. “You can if you want,” she replied, picking a raspberry off her waffles and munching on it. “Just tell Janice what you want.”

“I can’t stay with you forever, though…” Olivia sighed sadly.

“Says who?” Alex wanted to know.

“My mom’s gonna want me back home eventually to make my life hell, and your mom isn’t gonna want me hanging around to sex you up everyday,” Olivia said with a lopsided grin.

Alex laughed. “Not that I’d mind the latter.”

Olivia smirked. “I know you wouldn’t.”

“How’s the bruise today, baby?” Alex asked, examining her thigh.

“She’s fine, thank you,” Olivia teased.

Alex moved her fingers up a little more and Olivia gasped, “Baby! I don’t have a bruise up that far!”

Alex grinned and kept going. “I know.”

“Sweetie, how can I concentrate on eating when you’re touching my no-no special place?”

“Right now it’s saying ‘Yes, yes,’” Alex quipped.

Olivia burst out laughing. “And what’s yours saying?”

“Yes, please, yes!”

Olivia laughed harder. “That’s a total Alex answer.”

“Fine, I’ll let you finish breakfast,” she replied with a sly grin as she ate another raspberry. “But we will continue this later.”

Olivia drank some of her orange juice and smiled. “I’m sure we will.”

Once the room service waiter had returned to get the cart, Alex snuggled up to Olivia and said, “I can’t wait to see what the rest of the break has in store for us.”

“Hopefully no more unpleasant surprises,” Olivia muttered.

“Yeah, ditto,” Alex said, tracing a lazy pattern on her stomach. “Knowing our luck, though, your mom will bust in and try to force you to go back home.”

Olivia gave her a look. “Don’t even joke about that.”

“Or she’ll call my cell phone and tell me how ‘young, dumb, and full of cum’ I am.”

Olivia chuckled. “She probably would. Man, I was so embarrassed when she said that. I wanted to grab your hand and run out the house right then.”

Alex straddled her waist and brushed a lock of brown hair out of her face. “I can’t get over how fucking sexy you are. I’m so glad I don’t have to admire from afar anymore. Seeing the way you handled that ball on the court made me almost wish I was it.”

Olivia raised an eyebrow. “You wanted me to dribble you and throw you through a net?”

Alex laughed and shoved her shoulder. “No, silly. I just mean I liked the way you used your hands. Sometimes I’d imagine what they’d feel like all over me.”

“So that’s why you finally asked me out?”

“I wanted to get ahold of those great tits,” Alex replied, grabbing them through her tank.

“Is that the only reason you’re with me?” Olivia asked, grinning.

“No, you also have a great ass, great abs, great hair, a great smile…” she teased. “You’re perfect!”

Olivia placed her hands on top of Alex’s. “So nothing in there about my personality, huh?”

Alex kissed her on the nose. “It’s absolutely amazing. I’ve always found your strength, confidence, and independence irresistible.”

“You forgot the part where I’m warm and cuddly.”

“And caring and sweet,” Alex responded, kissing her nose again. “I also love how protective you are of me. I feel like nothing can hurt me while you’re around.”

“And nothing ever will,” Olivia swore, closing her eyes and softly capturing her lips.

“Hey, maybe we can play basketball sometime over our vacation and you can show me how to do one of those reverse layups.”

Olivia laughed. “Seeing you do a reverse layup? I’ll definitely have to have the video camera for that.” In her best sportscaster voice, she continued, “Alex Cabot brings the ball down court. She looks left, spins right, drives to the hoop—a reverse layup! She scores!”

Alex shoved her shoulder again. “Hey, I’ve got mad skills on the court.”

Olivia laughed harder. “‘Mad skills?’ It’s nice to dream, isn’t it?”

Alex responded this time by tickling her. “I’m getting better! Of course I’m sure it pales in comparison to star player Olivia Benson.”

“Yeah. You are getting better. At least now you don’t run in the opposite direction or squeal and dodge to the side when I pass the ball to you.”

“Hey now! You pass so hard! If it’d hit me, I would’ve had broken bones!”

Olivia ran a finger down her stomach. “Gotta keep that body in tip-tip condition or else you won’t be able to do your little flips and splits.”

“Maybe one day we can get you to do a back handspring without falling on your knees.”

“I almost had it last time!” Olivia protested. “It’s much easier to do flips when you’re landing in water instead of on the ground or floor!”

Alex giggled. “Yeah, your diving does rock. But I always get so scared that you’re gonna hit your head on the board when you’re doing your somersaults and twists!”

“Nah,” Olivia said, folding her arms confidently behind her head. “I’ve mastered it. It’s all about the way you project your body and control your form during takeoff.”

“Have you ever hit your head?”

“Nope. You just need to mentally prepare and know where the board is relative to your body.”

“I love the height you get on your dives. And you make basically no splash when you enter the water! What’s it called? A rip entry?”

“Yeah,” Olivia confirmed with a smile. “Glad you remembered.”

Alex grinned. “Yours is the best on the team! You always nail it.”

“Well, except for that time I was upset about my mom and Cragen tore me a new one.”

“But you’ve never done it at swim meets. I love the way the crowd just roars when you dive.”

Olivia beamed with pride. “I love getting out of the water and seeing you jumping up and down and waving your banner.”

“And I love it whenever you get out of a pool and your nipples are all hard. I just wanna jump you right there!”

Olivia moved Alex’s fingers right over her nipples. “You mean like right now?”

“So I guess praise turns you on, huh?”

“Oh, yeah. It isn’t just freestyle or a rip entry that gets the pokies all excited.”

“Does this get them excited?” Alex asked softly, kissing her neck.

“Definitely,” Olivia said, closing her eyes as she felt the tip of Alex’s tongue brush her skin.

Alex began sucking the spot gently while continuing to finger her nipples. She was just starting to pull up Olivia’s shirt when she heard banging on the door. Groaning, she yelled, “We’re busy!”

“Surf first! Sex later!” Casey demanded.

“The water’s not going anywhere!” Alex shouted.

“Neither are we!” Serena yelled.

Rolling her eyes, Alex got off Olivia and opened the door. Serena and Casey ran in and hopped on the bed. Looking down at Olivia’s chest, Casey said, “Wow. Looks like someone was revved up and ready for business.”

This time it was Olivia’s turn to roll her eyes. “You two need to get laid.”

“Already did!” Serena replied. “You two should’ve started earlier in the morning.”

“Well, I was kinda worn out after kicking Abbie’s ass. It’s why I needed fuel before my engine could get going this morning.”

Casey smirked. “I guess Alex gave you just the right fuel, huh?”

“That’s right!” Alex said with a big grin.

Olivia stretched her arms above her head. “So you guys already have your sex time, but you ruin ours?”

“Liv, Spring Break comes but once a year. You can have sex any other day,” Serena said.

“All right, all right,” Olivia groaned, getting out of bed.

Alex started following her to the bathroom. “We’ll be out in a few minutes.”

“Hey, wait a minute!” Serena protested just as they ran inside and shut the door. She heard loud laughter erupt.

“They so tricked us,” Casey muttered.

A devious smile crossed Serena’s lips. “I know the perfect way to get Alex back.” She ran over to the chest of drawers and started looking through them. When she’d found exactly what she wanted, she yelled, “Breaking news! Tweety underwear taken hostage! Captor willing to negotiate!”

Alex opened the door with lightning speed and ran out. “Get your hands off my tweeties!” she ordered.

Serena ran off. “Catch me if you can!”

Casey fell back on the bed in a fit of laughter. Olivia stood in the doorway to the bathroom and laughed so hard that tears were rolling down her cheeks.

“Give ’em back!” Alex yelled, chasing her around.

“You heard her, sweetie! You know Tweety is serious business!” Casey mocked.

“Liv, why aren’t you helping?” Alex demanded, reaching in vain to retrieve her underwear as she continued to run around the room.

“I’ll step in if things get ugly,” Olivia said through her laughs.

When Alex had finally cornered her, Serena jumped high and threw the panties over her head. Casey caught them and took off. “Don’t let her catch you, baby!” Serena told her.

Alex chased her new target. Casey ran across the bed, followed closely by a screaming Alex. “I’m serious, Casey! Give me back my tweeties!”

Casey looked over her shoulder and laughed as she ran. However, this proved to be an unfavorable course of action because she tripped over one of Alex’s flip-flops and went flying to the floor right in front of Olivia. Alex jumped on top of her and snatched the underwear out of her hands with a triumphant smile.

“Wow, Casey. You’re so graceful!” Olivia said sarcastically before she burst into another round of laughs.

Alex stood up and joined her in laughter. “I wish we could’ve videotaped that! Can you imagine what that would’ve looked like in slow-mo? Her arms were all flailing about as she went down!”

Still sprawled across the floor, Casey looked up at them and flipped them off. “Fuck you both!”

Olivia gave her a shit-eating grin. “Sorry, not into threesomes.”

Trying not to laugh but soon failing, Serena walked over to Casey and helped her up. “Stop making fun of my sweetheart.”

“You’re laughing, too!” Alex gleefully pointed out.

Casey blushed furiously at her apparent clumsiness. “At least I put up a good fight.”

Serena gave her a quick kiss on the lips. “That you did. You aren’t hurt, are you?”

“Nah,” Casey responded. “Just a little carpet burn.”

“That’s what you get for being a Tweety bandit!” Alex smugly proclaimed.

Casey rolled her eyes. “Who the hell has Tweety underwear anyway? What are you, five?”

Alex carefully folded her panties and walked in the bathroom, where she knew they would be safe. “You’re never too old for Tweety. By the way, I hope you never trip like that in a courtroom or you’re gonna be the laughingstock of the justice system!”

“Oh ha ha,” Casey stated dryly.

Chuckling softly to herself, Olivia backed up and shut the door. “Behave yourselves!” she ordered.

“Only if you promise us that first!” Serena shouted.

**************

Alex in Kevlar!

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 20:58:09 GMT

There's nothing hotter than a woman in kevlar, especially when that woman is Alex Cabot.

These caps are from Conviction 1.13 Hostage. I made them for smartyshortie, but anyone is free to use them if they want. :) Just click on the thumbnails to enlarge them.

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There were a couple other scenes of Alex in the bulletproof vest, but she was behind at least two other people in each of them, so I didn't cap those.

Chapter 42

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 22:34:42 GMT

Chapter 42: Sæglópur (Lost at Sea)

Serena was in her bedroom reading when her doorbell sounded. Taking off her glasses, she got out of bed and made her way to the door. “Just a sec!” She opened it to find Alex standing there looking like someone had ripped her heart out. “What’s wrong, sweetie?” she asked, stepping aside.

Alex came in and took a seat on the sofa. She didn’t even bother removing her coat. “It’s Liv.”

Serena rushed to her side and put an arm around her. “What happened?”

“We had a fight,” Alex answered.

“About what?”

“The same thing we always do—the fact that I’m not out.”

Serena rubbed her back sympathetically. “How did it start?”

“I told her I was leaving Robert and that I wanted to be back with her. She started questioning me to make sure I was sure about everything. Then she finally agreed.”

“So then how did things turn sour?”

“She told me she wanted to celebrate by going as my date to the fundraiser for the Crime Prevention Commission.”

“The one on Sunday?”

“Yeah. I told her that was too fast and I was uncomfortable with it. I said we should be more discreet. She told me she wasn’t going to do discretion anymore.” She shook her head. “Serena, there I was practically throwing myself at her…” she sobbed.

Serena grabbed a couple tissues and gave them to her. “Take your time.”

“She was furious,” Alex continued after she’d had a few minutes to compose herself. “She accused me of thinking she was less important than those who are going to be at the fundraiser and of being ashamed of our relationship. She thought that if we hid things, someone would eventually discover us and it would cause me to freak out and leave her like I made the mistake of doing before. I hate so much that this happened tonight. In a few days time, we went from being in paradise to complete hell. I was so excited that for a split second she was my girlfriend again. It was like everything was going to be ok. Life can be really cruel.”

“I’m sorry, Alex.”

Alex balled up a tissue in her hand. “She’s so afraid I’ll break her heart again but I just wish she’d give me another chance. I never intended to hurt her. She said I only think about my needs and she won’t be my dirty little secret anymore. You know…I’ve always known I wanted her but I kept coming up with all these reasons why I couldn’t have her. Now when I’m finally ready to cast them all aside and just be with her, she doesn’t wanna be with me!” she exclaimed, going into a fresh fit of sobs.

Serena patted her back. “It’ll be ok, honey.”

Alex sniffled. “I doubt it. The last thing she said to me was that she deserved better. I got so mad that I just left. I couldn’t believe she’d say something like that to me. I mean, I wrote her a letter last year where I basically told her the same thing. But it’s one thing to think badly of yourself and another to hear the one you love echo those sentiments. I felt like a knife was grinding into my heart.”

Serena squeezed her shoulder. “I firmly believe everything has a time and a place. Perhaps now just isn’t the time for you two. But it doesn’t mean that it will never happen.”

“No, this is it. She’ll never want anything to do with me again. I might as well just cut my losses and stay with Robert.”

“Staying with Robert isn’t helping you be true to yourself. It’s doing just the opposite.”

“Why should I be true to myself if the love of my life won’t have me?”

“You need to do it for you. The longer you stay in the closet, the unhappier you will be. You’ll convince yourself you can still be happy being someone you’re not, but each time you see a gay couple, you’ll wish you had followed your heart. You’ll begin to resent yourself and resent Robert for what could’ve been. In a way, you already do.”

Alex let out an agonizing sigh. “I get what you’re saying, but I think it will just be easier for me to live a normal life. No strange looks, no one whispering about what a pervert I am, no alienation from my family or any friends, no one trying to thwart my career efforts because they think a lesbian is bad representation. I’m not ready to come out and I don’t think anyone should try to force me out, which is exactly what Liv wants. Everyone thinks they know what’s better for me than I do.”

Serena realized that it was useless trying to argue with her. She forced a smile and rubbed her knee. “I’ll get you a glass of water.”

While her best friend was in the kitchen, Alex reflected over everything that had happened. She couldn’t believe it. Here she was, lost at sea without a compass again, the harsh waves of her reality threatening to consume her. Like a storm troubling the ocean in the middle of the night, the darkness in her soul returned. She didn’t understand how things could go downhill so fast. Now she was faced with two choices—become shipwrecked or take hold of the wheel and steer her life in the best direction of only bad ones.

But she wasn’t going to let this bother her at work. The next day she planned to put on her game face like always and act like nothing was wrong in her life. Sulking about her love life wasn’t going to get the bureau any convictions. She would go back to having the attitude she had when she decided to move in with Robert and she couldn’t afford to backslide on her self-transformation again.

**************

Alex took her key out of her purse. She stood there for a few moments, thankful that she didn’t have to go back to her old apartment, which she knew would only remind her of Olivia and drown her in grief. Taking a deep breath, she unlocked the door. She knew that once she crossed that threshold, she would have to live as someone different again. And she was prepared for that.

The apartment was shrouded in darkness. Turning on the light to the staircase, she made her way upstairs and opened the bedroom door. Robert was there fast asleep. She changed into her nightgown and slipped in beside him. After wrapping her arm around him, she kissed his cheek and whispered in his ear, “I’m sorry.”

To her surprise, without opening his eyes, he stirred and answered, “I know.”

Chapter 41

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 21:55:27 GMT

Title: The Course of True Love
Pairing: Alex/Olivia
Fandom: Conviction/Law and Order SVU
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: All characters are the property of Dick Wolf and NBC (except for the few I created).
Author's Notes: This story is meant to fill in the gaps for what wasn't shown on Conviction but very well could have happened; however, it begins before Conviction premiered in 2006 and will end after the finale.
Summary: Alex has returned to New York City and been promoted to Bureau Chief. Will she keep her promises to Olivia or will she decide that her career is more important?

Chapter 41: Full Circle

Olivia opened her door to find Alex standing there with flowers. “Good evening,” she said with a bright smile, holding the bouquet out to her.

Olivia took the flowers and motioned for her to come in. “What’re these for?”

“Well…I have something important I want to talk to you about,” Alex replied.

“Ok, so spill,” Olivia said, sitting on the couch.

After taking off her coat, Alex sat down next to her and turned to face her. “I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately.”

“Ok…” Olivia began.

“And I want to be with you again.”

Olivia’s eyes widened. “You do?”

“Yes,” Alex answered.

Olivia let out a laugh. “So what happened? This whole thing with Mike gave you some sort of epiphany?”

Alex took a deep breath and then let it out slowly. “Yes, it did.”

“Um, wow…this is a lot to take in,” Olivia said softly. She looked down at the flowers in her hand and continued, “Let me go put these in some water.” Alex nodded.

After she’d put them in a vase, she sat back down beside her and asked, “Are you sure about this?”

“Yes.”

“It sounds good in theory, Alex, but can you really put it into practice? You’re still dating Robert.”

“Liv, I’m going to leave him.”

“But you moved in with him.”

“And I can move out!” Alex argued.

Olivia was silent for a few moments. “And you’re 100% sure of this?” she asked again.

“Yes,” Alex insisted, leaning in to brush Olivia’s lips with her own.

Olivia placed a hand on Alex’s face and returned the kiss. But before she got completely lost under her spell, she pulled back and looked down. “I just don’t think we’ve had enough time apart. If we get back together now, we’ll be rushing into things and I don’t want either of us to have any regrets,” she explained.

Alex lifted her chin. “Olivia, the only regret I have is breaking up with you in the first place. If I hadn’t done that, then none of all this other horrible stuff would’ve ever happened and neither of us would be suffering so much.”

Olivia sighed. “Well, we can’t change the past.”

Alex stroked her cheek lovingly. “But we can change the future. If you want me, I’m yours.”

Despite her hesitation, Olivia felt her heart leap at Alex’s proposition. “Ok. What should we do to celebrate?”

Alex was ecstatic. She felt like she’d finally found her way again. “You can start by helping me move my stuff back home,” she said, leaning in to kiss her once more. “Then we can have our own little private celebration. I promise I will make it worth your while,” she added, a twinkle in her eye.

Olivia ran a hand down her arm and looked happily into her eyes. “Well, I was thinking about something a little less private. I know you have to give that speech at the Crime Prevention Commission’s fundraiser on Sunday night. It would be nice if we could go together,” she said, smiling at her. She picked up her hand and started stroking it. “You know, as a couple.”

Alex looked down at the motions of her fingers. “Uh…I don’t know about that. That’s a little too fast.”

Olivia’s entire face fell. She shook her head and dropped Alex’s hand. “I knew this was too good to be true.”

Shame colored Alex’s cheeks. “Liv, I didn’t mean it like that.”

“Then what did you mean it like?”

“Just that a little discretion to start would be nice. We don’t have to do everything at once.”

“To start?” Olivia asked, moving back from her on the sofa. “We’ve been discreet since 2001! It’s more than time to step it up a notch!”

“Branch is going to be at that fundraiser along with the Chief of D’s and several other very important members of the force and DA’s office.”

Olivia stood up. “Oh, and none of them are as important as I am, huh?”

Alex’s mouth dropped open. “That’s not what I’m saying and you know it!”

Olivia walked behind the sofa. “I think you’ve said enough already. You don’t want your girlfriend cramping your style. Hate for all those important homophobes to think any less of you for being gay.”

Alex turned around to face her and frowned. “You’re blowing this out of proportion!”

“Am I? Don’t think so. You want to impress all the political and moneyed bigwigs, and you’re afraid a lesbian relationship will compromise your precious future and reputation.”

“All I’m asking for is discretion,” Alex said, desperately trying to convince her so she could keep her love life and career afloat. “I’m not saying I’m going to go to functions and pretend I’m dating some guy anymore.”

“Oh, why not, Alex?” Olivia asked sardonically, starting to pace back and forth in front of the window. “You love to pretend! It’s your favorite pastime! That’s why you sleep with men and now have set up house with one!”

Alex realized Olivia was just speaking out of hurt and anger, but she didn’t know how much more she could take without losing her cool. “Why can’t you just meet me halfway on this? Why does it have to be all or nothing?”

Olivia stopped in her tracks. Her eyes burned into Alex’s. “I told you before that I couldn’t handle discretion anymore. We have to act like any other couple, which means you can’t be in the closet. If others can be open with their relationships, I want to be open with mine, too.”

“We can be open in private. As long as we know we love each other, we don’t have to prove anything to anyone else.”

“It’s not about proving anything to anyone. It’s about not being ashamed of our love. Besides, it’s the discretion that has always caused problems in our relationship. What happens the next time someone finds out about us? Are you gonna freak out and dump me just like you did when Donnelly saw us kissing?”

Alex looked down. “Liv…”

“Your hesitation was all I needed,” Olivia replied coldly.

A tear rolled down Alex’s cheek. She got up and stood in front of her. Grabbing her hands, she pleaded, “I just wanna be with you.”

Olivia looked down at their joined hands and sadly wondered if it would be the last time. After a moment, she looked back into her eyes. She felt herself tearing up. She inhaled deeply to try to hold them back. “I know and I wanna be with you, too. But you’re not saying anything new. You’ve always wanted to be with me, even when you were with others. I’m not questioning your desire. I question if you are actually able to be with me and stay with me. You know the road to hell is paved with good intentions.”

“Liv, can’t I get a little more credit now?”

“Alex—”

“This is because of Zoe, isn’t it?” Alex accused, dropping her hands.

Olivia’s jaw dropped. “What? No! Where’d you get that?”

“Then if it’s not her, why aren’t you willing to give me another chance?” Alex demanded, not bothering to brush away the warm tears trailing down her cheeks.

“Because you’ve broken my heart, Alex!” Olivia yelled, turning red. “I can’t keep going through that.”

“You think I ever purposely wanted to break your heart?”

“No, but I do think you’ve been very selfish.”

“Selfish? Liv, I just told you I’m leaving Robert for you! So how am I being selfish when I’m getting rid of something that only serves to benefit me? Not only is he the perfect New York socialite, but he can also use his power and connections to double my chances of succeeding in politics!”

Olivia glared at her. “Am I supposed to be honored that you’re picking me over this fine epicurean socialite?” she asked, her voice dripping with sarcasm. “You only wanna dump Robert now because you are thinking about your needs with me. Then if you think people are about to find out about our relationship, you’ll break my heart because you’ll only be thinking about your needs again.”

“That’s not true!” Alex cried. She looked off to the side. “I thought you’d be happy I was leaving him.”

“And why is that?” Olivia asked.

“Dumping him eliminates a huge problem! I don’t have to sneak around with you behind his back anymore and you don’t have to see me with anyone else.”

“You’re not getting it!” Olivia shouted, throwing her hands up. “He’s a complication, but he’s never been the source of the problem.”

“So you’re afraid that if we’re together, I’ll run off and later hook up with some other guy?”

“It’s not about you running off and getting with some guy, it’s about you running off, period. When you broke my heart in July and then again in August, it wasn’t because of a guy! It was because you were afraid of being outed. We cannot come full circle.”

“What do you mean?” Alex asked painfully.

“When you first returned to Manhattan, we started dating again without any outsiders. Now we’d just be repeating that and things would work fine until we slipped up and someone caught us in a compromising position. Then the drama and heartache would start all over again. None of that would happen if we just didn’t give a damn and weren’t trying to hide our relationship in the first place.”

“Why don’t I just wear an ‘I’m a lesbian’ t-shirt and make out with you on every street corner?” Alex snapped. “Would that be easier for you?”

Olivia glared again. “Drop it. I never expected you to frolic down the halls of One Hogan Place with me and sing that you’re a lesbian. All I ever wanted was that if worst came to worst, you’d stand by my side through the crossfire and you can’t promise me that. Alex, I won’t continue being your dirty little secret. I deserve better than that.”

Alex crossed the room and put back on her coat. “Well, if you think you deserve so much better, then I won’t waste your time anymore. Goodbye.” She grabbed her purse and stormed out the door.

“Arggh!” Olivia yelled out, slamming her fist on the sofa table. Her frustration echoed throughout her apartment. She was tired of this tug-of-war that was constantly going on between them. Every time something brought them closer together, something else tore them apart again. She wasn’t sure if they’d ever get a break. Maybe it’s just not meant to be, she thought, the tears silently flowing down her cheeks.

Chapter 40

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 20:23:40 GMT

Title: The Course of True Love
Pairing: Alex/Olivia
Fandom: Conviction/Law and Order SVU
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: All characters are the property of Dick Wolf and NBC (except for the few I created).
Author's Notes: This story is meant to fill in the gaps for what wasn't shown on Conviction but very well could have happened; however, it begins before Conviction premiered in 2006 and will end after the finale.
Summary: Alex has returned to New York City and been promoted to Bureau Chief. Will she keep her promises to Olivia or will she decide that her career is more important?

Chapter 40: Great Expectations

“How was your weekend?” Serena asked as she sat down on the sofa.

“Wonderful! It was the best weekend of my life,” Alex said, slipping out of her heels and resting her feet on the ottoman.

Serena folded her arms and smirked. “So how many times did you and Liv have sex?”

Alex balked. “Uh, we didn’t…I mean, it’s not like we…” She saw that Serena wasn’t buying it. “Ok, so we did. But how did you know?”

“Because you say that every single time you and Liv have sex,” Serena replied with a shit-eating grin.

Alex blushed. “I can’t help if she’s the best lover on Earth.”

Serena cocked her head. “Hey now, you’re getting a little ahead of yourself.”

Alex grinned. “What can I say? She’s magnetic.”

“Which is why you always keep going back to her,” Serena said.

“Speaking of going back…” Alex began. She folded her hands in her lap. “Mike’s death just shed light on so many things I’d lost sight of, like cherishing the ones you love instead of running away from them. I want to be back with Liv.”

Serena’s eyes got wide. “Really?”

“Yes,” Alex confirmed. “I don’t wanna be without her in my life any longer.”

“So when are you gonna tell her?” Serena asked, holding out a plate of sweet rolls.

Alex shook her head and held up a hand to politely decline. “Tomorrow night when I see her.”

“What about Robert?”

“I’m breaking up with him.”

Serena’s mouth dropped open. “Seriously?”

“Yes,” Alex answered again.

Serena smiled. “Well, it’s good to have the old Alex back. So when did you decide this?”

“Last night,” Alex replied. “I made dinner for her then we cuddled by the fireplace…”

“You mean made love by the fireplace.”

Alex laughed and rolled her eyes. “What are you? A fly on my wall?”

“I just know you too well,” Serena replied with a smirk.

“I’ll have you know it was both.”

“Figures,” she replied, taking a bite of a sweet roll. “When was the last time you saw Robert?”

Alex rolled her eyes again, this time in disgust. “Yesterday. He stopped by my place.”

Serena’s eyes grew wide again. “When Liv was there?”

Alex shook her head. “No, thank God. It was before she came.”

“What’d he want?”

“To piss me off,” Alex said, frowning at the recollection. “He basically wanted to know why I hadn’t returned his calls and why I wouldn’t open up to him. He had the nerve to tell me he had a right to know my intimate thoughts because I’m his girlfriend.” Bitterness hung on the last word.

Her best friend regarded her with concern. “That sounds a bit controlling, Alex.”

“Tell me about it,” she muttered.

“Did you tell Olivia he was there?”

Alex leaned back in the armchair a bit. “No. I didn’t want to ruin the mood. I also didn’t want her to leave.”

“You think she would’ve?”

“Maybe. I wasn’t about to take a chance. She doesn’t like him.”

Serena chuckled. “Well, that’s to be expected. Would you like the guy who’s dating the love of your life?”

“I know. It’s been so hard to get her to open up to me again and I’m afraid knowing he was there would’ve made those walls go back up just as quickly as they’d come down.”

“Well, as long as he’s not mentioned and you don’t see him, you can kinda pretend he doesn’t exist.”

“Sometimes I wish he didn’t,” Alex murmured. “I think about how different things would be if I’d never met him.”

Serena smiled and crossed her legs. “You can thank your brother for that.”

Alex scoffed. “I’m never letting Victor talk me into dating one of his friends again.”

“That would be wise—especially considering how they are all men.”

“Victor would die if he knew I was a lesbian.”

“It would be nice to live in a world free of homophobia.”

“Yep. I never would’ve slept with a man because I wouldn’t have had a reason to not be true to myself.”

“Me either,” Serena agreed.

“It would’ve been so wonderful to just be with women all my life. I could’ve saved myself a lot of unhappiness.”

Serena shrugged. “Yeah…but everything happens for a reason, I guess. If you’d been out when you met Liv, you may have never dated her because you could’ve been in a long-term relationship with another woman.”

“Well, there were many women I found beautiful and would’ve been interested in dating had I not been closeted. I used to get crushes on chicks and I even had feelings for a couple I slept with in undergrad and law school. But I’ve only ever felt this way about her. From the moment I saw her I knew something was different.”

Serena grinned. “I know something changed about you after you started SVU. You seemed happier and more relaxed. There was a glow about you. Not to mention that you really started going that extra mile for the victims instead of just blazing a political warpath.”

Alex sighed. “Yeah…even before Liv and I started dating, just seeing her would brighten my day. She has this charisma about her that just captures you and never lets go.”

“You’ve got it bad, woman.”

A goofy smile danced at Alex’s lips. “Yep.”

**************

“Evan is willing to plead guilty to manslaughter right now if you’ll move this to juvenile court,” his lawyer argued the next morning.

“We can’t do that,” Alex insisted.

“He’s 14 for God’s sake,” he replied.

“We’ve been through this,” Jim said.

“He’ll do five years in a juvenile facility where he can continue his education and seek counseling,” the defense attorney responded.

Jim put his documents back in their manila folder. “Anything else?” he asked, standing up.

“Yeah, why the hell are we even trying this case in the first place?” Evan’s father demanded.

“Excuse me?” Jim asked.

“What happened to my son, it’s my problem, my loss,” his father replied. “Not yours. Not your boss’s. Mine. So why not just leave it alone?”

“That’s not how it works, Mr. Foye. I’m sorry,” Jim explained.

“I’m the father,” Mr. Foye said through gritted teeth. “I’ve already lost one son. I’m not about to lose another,” he continued, getting up. He patted Evan on the shoulder. “Come on, son. Let’s go.”

“Adult crime, adult time,” Alex said to Jim as soon as Evan Foye, his father, and his attorney left her office. She looked up over her shoulder at him. “Office policy.”

“You mean office politics,” Jim said pointedly, gathering his files under his arm so he could leave, too.

“What’s the difference?” Alex muttered disenchantingly, shaking her head. She closed her eyes and rubbed her forehead. It was certainly easier to employ the policy in theory than in practice. After he closed the door to her office, she stood up from the table and went over to her desk. Pulling her phone out of her purse, she called Olivia.

“Benson” came the smooth, familiar voice.

“Hey, you busy right now?”

Olivia held the phone between her ear and shoulder and scribbled some notes on a pad. “Not too much. What’s up?”

“I was just wondering what time you think you’ll be home tonight.”

“Oh…probably around 9,” Olivia replied, taking a sip of coffee. “I have a couple errands to run after I get off. Why? You wanna come over?”

Alex smiled. “That I do.”

“Ok. How ’bout I give you a call a bit later?”

“That’ll be fine. Talk to you soon,” Alex said softly.

“Bye,” Olivia replied. A smile slowly spread across her lips. She hadn’t wanted to admit it, but she was getting used to Alex’s company again and looking forward to each time she saw her. Can it be that we really are starting over again? she hoped.

Elliot slapped her on the back on the way to his desk. “What’s got you so excited, partner?”

Olivia shook her head and immersed herself in a case file. “Oh um…it’s nothing.”

“The combination of that smile and that bullshit answer means it’s none other than Alex Cabot.”

Olivia sighed and looked up. “Do we have to do this again?”

“Yep,” Elliot replied, grinning at her over his cup of coffee. “So I take it you went over to Alex’s last week after all?”

“You could say that.”

“How is she?”

Olivia flashed a smile. “She’s good. We saw each other the past few days.”

“You spent the night together every night, didn’t you?”

“What’s it to you?” Olivia asked.

“Hey, it was just a question…”

“Elliot, I’m not giving you details of my sex life,” Olivia whispered harshly.

“Aha!” Elliot exclaimed, pointing a finger at her. “Thanks for proving my point.”

Olivia rolled her eyes. “You just don’t let up, do you?”

“I just like to see my partner happy. That’s all,” he said with a smile. “Whatever went on between you two, I can tell it was good.”

Let’s just hope it stays that way, Olivia thought.

Chapter 39 (Part 2)

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 13:19:48 GMT

Title: The Course of True Love
Pairing: Alex/Olivia
Fandom: Conviction/Law and Order SVU
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: All characters are the property of Dick Wolf and NBC (except for the few I created).
Author's Notes: This story is meant to fill in the gaps for what wasn't shown on Conviction but very well could have happened; however, it begins before Conviction premiered in 2006 and will end after the finale.
Summary: Alex has returned to New York City and been promoted to Bureau Chief. Will she keep her promises to Olivia or will she decide that her career is more important?

“I think that’s the most creative way I’ve ever used honey,” Alex said with a grin.

“You sure know how to work up an appetite in a girl. I can’t wait to eat.”

“I can’t either. But I just had the best appetizer in the world. I think the entrée will be hard to top that. By the way, I think you almost crushed my skull.”

Olivia laughed and jumped down off the counter. “Sorry about that.” She pulled up her jeans and underwear and pushed down her bra and sweater. She looked Alex up and down. “You’re not gonna put back on your robe?”

Alex shrugged. “Why bother? It’ll just come off again soon anyway.”

“I don’t think I’d be able to concentrate on eating if you’re sitting in front of me in your birthday suit.”

“Well, I’ll put my robe back on when we start eating,” Alex said, smiling and washing her hands. She then turned the burner back on, added the shallots to the pan, and sautéed them. “Baby, can you get the Shiraz?”

“Where is it?”

“It’s in that wine rack in the middle of the island,” Alex said, glancing over her shoulder. “Second to last bottle.”

Olivia went over to the rack and pulled out the bottle of Shiraz. Before bringing it over to Alex, she took a moment to admire the shape of her perfect ass.

Alex could feel her eyes on her. Without turning around, she chuckled softly and said, “If you keep staring at my ass all night, I’ll never get this sauce made.”

Olivia laughed and brought the wine to her. “Good call, Cabot.” Alex poured the wine in the pan, causing the contents to sizzle. “Careful. Remember, you don’t have any protection for your skin.”

Smiling, Alex added broth, balsamic vinegar, honey, and pomegranate molasses. Then she went to the refrigerator and cut off some butter to add to it all.

While she waited for the sauce to thicken, she chopped up some oregano, chard leaves, cauliflower, and a clove of garlic. Then she pulled out another pan and began sautéing them in a little olive oil.

“Need some help?” Olivia asked.

Alex shook her head. “I think I got it.”

“Good to know you can multitask,” Olivia joked, tasting the sauce. “Ooh, that pomegranate is really good.”

Alex swatted her hand away. “Hey! No tasting before your meal!”

Olivia grinned. “What are the veggies for?”

“The couscous,” Alex said simply. “That reminds me…” She grabbed a pot and quickly poured some broth in it to boil. Then she stirred the sauce.

“Sweetie, why don’t you let me finish sautéing? Promise I won’t eat anything.”

Smirking, Alex said, “Ok, I trust you.”

Olivia sautéed while Alex continued to stir the sauce. Even though she tried to concentrate on the contents of the pan, her eyes kept drifting to Alex’s breasts, the nipples perky and tight. She involuntarily licked her lips. The spoon dropping to the floor snapped her out of reverie.

Alex looked over at her and grinned. “Technical difficulties, Liv?”

Olivia bent down to pick up the spoon and then threw it in the sink. She got a fresh one and pushed the vegetables around. “Oh, um, sorry. Kinda checked out for a sec.”

Alex’s grin spread. “Well, since I’m being too distracting, I’ll put my robe back on,” she responded, picking it up off the floor and slipping her arms into the sleeves.

Olivia rolled her eyes. “You’re really enjoying this, aren’t you?”

“Oh yeah!”

When the sauce reached the consistency she wanted, Alex turned off the burner and poured the couscous in the pot.

“Mmm…my mouth is watering so much right now,” Olivia said.

“I’m taking that as a good sign.”

“Very.”

After the couscous had cooked, Alex poured it into the pan of vegetables and stirred everything together.

“Is it ready?” Olivia asked.

“Will be soon. Just a few more minutes.” She turned down the heat a little.

“I’ll get plates and silverware,” Olivia said. “Want me to take the lamb out of the oven?”

“Sure,” she replied, flashing a smile.

In a few minutes, the meal was complete. Alex scooped some couscous on each plate and placed a lamb chop next to it. She poured the sauce over the lamb and garnished the plates with a spring of rosemary. “Bon appétit, sweetie,” she said, handing her a plate.

“Thank you,” Olivia replied, heading for the dining room.

“Oh, Liv. Let’s eat by the fireplace.”

Olivia smiled. “All right.” She followed Alex to the living room and they sat down in front of the fireplace.

Alex suddenly snapped her fingers. “I almost forgot the wine!” She ran out of the room.

Olivia looked around and breathed in the cozy, romantic ambiance. The soft glow of the candles and flames leaping behind the glass doors of the fireplace provided all the warmth and light they needed. The air was filled with a sense of peace and comfort.

Alex returned with two wine glasses and a bottle of Merlot. Pouring a little in each, she handed one to Olivia and held hers up in a toast. “To the sexiest, most magnificent woman on Earth.”

“Thank you,” Olivia said, clinking her glass against Alex’s and drinking a sip. She cut into her lamb chop and took a bite. “Oh my god,” she complimented, closing her eyes and savoring the taste. “Are you trying to give me another orgasm? This sauce is amazing!”

Alex grinned. “Not yet.”

Olivia scooped some couscous up with her fork. “And this is really good, too. The chard adds great flavor. Not to mention that it makes it pretty.”

Alex tasted a piece of her chop. “I must say these came out perfectly.”

“Oh, yes! They are really tender and juicy.”

“Thanks,” Alex responded, eating some couscous. She washed it down with a swallow of wine.

“You’re very welcome.”

They ate silently for a few minutes and were content to just bask in each other’s company. The mood was perfect and lighthearted.

“Would you like some more wine?” Alex asked, holding up the bottle.

“Just a little bit,” Olivia replied.

When they had finished eating, she picked up their dishes and said, “Since you made such a wonderful meal, I’ll go load these in the dishwasher.”

“Oh Liv, you don’t have to.”

“But I want to,” Olivia insisted. “Just sit tight.” Upon her return, she asked, “So what do you want to do now?”

“How about just holding each other?” Alex said, moving over beside her and wrapping her arms around her waist. She laid her head on her shoulder.

Olivia sighed and stroked her hair. They stayed like that for the longest time. The only sounds other than those of the city were their soft breathing and the fire crackling.

Olivia eventually lifted Alex’s head off her shoulder and stood up. “Just need to stretch my legs a bit,” she explained.

Alex nodded and stood up, too. She followed Olivia over to the vast windows.

“I’ve always loved your view here,” Olivia said. “You can see the entire city. It would be nice to have a place with floor-to-ceiling windows.”

Alex slipped her hand under her sweater and caressed the small of her back. “Do you ever wonder what it would have been like to move in together?”

Olivia turned to her. At first she didn’t anything. Alex noticed that a bit of sadness had glossed over her eyes. “Yeah,” she finally answered.

“I do, too,” Alex admitted. Hopefully one day we can, she thought. Not wanting to dampen the mood, she went over to her CD changer and put on Vanessa Williams. She turned the volume down so that it was just loud enough for them to hear but not high enough to distract them from focusing on each other. Walking back over to Olivia, she took her hand and linked their fingers together. “Come on,” she said softly, jerking her head in the direction of the fireplace.

It’s just the way that you love

You know you drive me crazy

It’s just the way that you love

You know you drive me crazy

As the singer’s smooth, strong voice floated throughout the room, Alex pulled Olivia to her in a deep kiss. She tenderly held her face in her hands as Olivia rubbed her hands over her back. The silk of her robe felt sensual and exquisite beneath her fingertips.

I’ve been waiting for this moment secretly

Counting every minute, every hour, ’til you’re with me

’Cause I know just what’s in store

And now I’m in your arms, so baby close the door

Why waste another minute

Ooh, let’s get right to it

Baby, turn the lights down

We don’t have to say a word

Unspoken pleasure, there’s no way to measure

How you make me feel when you’re near me

Whisper softly…

Their lips temporarily parted so they could remove the other’s clothing. Then they were soon once again lost in their kiss. Alex caressed Olivia’s breasts and pushed her tongue deeper down her throat.

Without breaking their connection, Olivia placed her hands on Alex’s shoulders and lowered them to their knees. She lay down in front of the fireplace and pulled her on top of her. Their bodies merged perfectly together, as if they were each other’s missing piece.

And it seems time flies whenever I’m in your arms

I like to savor every second you thrill me with your charms

Now I’m lost in the magic that we share

When I look into your eyes, I know how much you care

Don’t wanna rush the feeling, ’cause loving you’s so real and

Feel the satisfaction, you got me callin’ out your name

More than emotion, let’s keep this fire going

Now we’re lost inside our love

Sweet surrender, so tender…

Alex placed light kisses all over her face while leaving feathery touches up and down her arms. She licked the spot behind her ear, causing her to moan louder. Her nipples brushed hers, sending shivers through both of them and making their wetness spread.

She started slowly grinding her center into Olivia’s, using her tongue to make the same motions inside her mouth that her hips were making below. They easily fell into each other’s rhythm. Breasts caressed breasts, stomach caressed stomach, clit caressed clit.

Ooh, you know me oh so well

You always take your time, you always get it right

You set my soul on fire

And I know you’ve got my rhythm ’cause you take me higher

Olivia rolled them over so that she was on top. Alex wrapped her arms around her and held on tight; she never wanted to let go. Olivia broke their kiss to allow them both air and then brushed her lips over her neck. Coming back up, she nipped her earlobe. Alex moaned in pleasure and pressed their breasts tighter together to magnify the sensations. As Olivia continued to slide her center into hers, she stared into her blue eyes and saw nothing but pure love. Alex saw the same emotion reflected back.

It’s just the way that you love

Don’t you stop

You know you drive me crazy

Don’t waste time, baby

Don’t stop…

Don’t you stop, don’t you stop

You know you’ve got the rhythm

You’ve got the rhythm, baby

Olivia smiled down at her and their lips joined again. She would move her hips faster to increase the friction and then slower, driving them to the precipice of orgasm and taking them back just before they flew over. She gasped each time she felt Alex’s inner folds squeeze her slick, engorged clit. They could each feel white hot energy pulsing and radiating inside them, threatening to consume them. When it had risen to the brim, Olivia left her mouth and looked into her eyes again.

With that silent communication they came together, screaming and surrendering their pleasure to each other. Once their bodies had stopped shuddering, Alex pressed her lips hard against Olivia’s in a smothering kiss.

Olivia scooted down her body a little and laid her head on her chest. She didn’t know what the future held, but she did wish that they could stay in that moment forever.

Alex kissed her forehead and stroked her hair. Even though she knew they weren’t a couple, she knew their hearts had never left each other and she felt an indescribable closeness that could not be surpassed by any other human being. But she was tired of not being in a relationship with her anymore, tired of denying both of them what they wanted, no, needed. She made up her mind. She was going to leave Robert. She thought about telling her right then and there, but she didn’t want her to think that she was making a rash decision or one that was a result of post-coital bliss. Besides, she decided that it would be good for her to take a couple days to sort things out to make sure she didn’t falter. She only hoped that Olivia would agree to take her back…

Chapter 39 (Part 1)

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 13:16:15 GMT

Chapter 39: The Way That You Love

The ring of the doorbell sounded throughout the apartment. Smiling, Alex thought, She must’ve gotten off early. She stopped unpacking groceries, left the kitchen, and ran to the door.

“Just a sec!” she yelled.

When she looked through the peephole, her stomach sank to see Robert. She quickly turned around and pressed her back against the door. Shit! What should I do? I can’t act like I’m not here because he probably heard me yell! Taking a deep breath, she turned back around and unlocked the door.

“Alex, where have you been?” Robert asked, taking it upon himself to walk in. “I haven’t heard from you since Thursday!”

“I’ve been taking some me time.”

“Me time? I’m your boyfriend for crying out loud and you didn’t even return my calls! I was worried sick about you!”

Alex folded her arms. “Robert, I am fully capable of taking care of myself.”

Robert frowned. “I never said you weren’t. But you couldn’t even spare five minutes to let me know you were ok?”

“I had a lot of other stuff on my mind.”

“Like what?” he demanded. “I never once crossed it?”

“Don’t be selfish,” she retorted.

“You’re accusing me of being selfish when you’re the one who isn’t considering anyone’s feelings but your own?”

Alex stared him down. “If this is all you came over for, there’s the door,” she declared, gesturing at it with one hand.

Robert sighed. “Listen, I don’t want to argue, sweetie. I just thought we could have dinner together.”

“Oh, a couple girlfriends are coming over,” Alex lied. “We’re having dinner.”

Robert glared. “So you can plan dinner with your friends but can’t talk to me for days? Shouldn’t I take precedence in your life?”

Alex rolled her eyes. “I’ve known them for years and you a few months. I just feel like they can understand what I’m going through better.”

“So why don’t you help me understand instead of shutting me out?”

“Because with my friends, I don’t have to explain anything. They already know.”

Robert shook his head. “I can’t believe you.”

“And I can’t believe you wouldn’t respect my wishes to be alone!”

“You’re not alone if you have friends coming over!”

“So I’m supposed to spend all my free time with you?”

“That’s not what I’m saying and you know it. You’re avoiding me.”

“Because I knew you’d put unnecessary pressure on me—just like you’re doing now!”

“So because I’m asking you a simple question, I’m pressuring you?”

“You’re picking a fight and trying to get me to talk about things I don’t feel like discussing!”

“You should be able to discuss these things with your boyfriend!”

“There are some things I don’t want to relive,” she said through gritted teeth.

“I have a right to know!”

Alex’s mouth dropped open. “No, you don’t! Just because we’re living together doesn’t mean I forfeited my right to privacy! I don’t need old wounds reopened.”

“Talking everything out is the only way you’ll get past it.”

Alex threw her hands up exasperatedly. “Oh, so you’re my therapist now? You might want to stick to your day job.”

“I don’t have time for this,” Robert said, heading for the door. With his hand on the knob, he turned back to look at her. “I’ll see you when you get home—perhaps when I move from the bottom of your long list of priorities.”

“Shut up, Robert!” Alex yelled, slamming the door behind him and locking it. What a jerk! she thought.

She walked back to the kitchen and tried to clear her head. She wanted to focus on nothing but Olivia tonight and she didn’t have time to be sidetracked by Robert of all people. She opened the refrigerator and took a long sip of water. She was determined that nothing would ruin her evening.

**************

Elliot was pouring a cup of coffee when Olivia walked in. “Hey, I got it.”

“Thanks,” he responded. “Anything good?”

“Not really. Adam doesn’t come from much,” Olivia replied. “The dad works in a warehouse,” she continued, following Elliot to the observation room, “the mom at a doughnut shop. Adam doesn’t even have a sheet.”

“That’s what I thought,” Elliot said.

“Then why’d you get me in here to check?” Olivia asked, somewhat annoyed.

“I just wanna know who this kid is.”

“Usually we let the defense attorney dig up the sob story.”

Elliot stopped at the one-way mirror and turned around. Trying to give a casual smile, he insisted, “No… Look, the more I know, the easier I can break him.”

“He’s a murderer. He killed Caroline Pereira to erase his debt.”

Shaking his head, he turned away from looking at Adam through the mirror. “There’s more to him than that.” He started to go in the interrogation room.

“So what?” Olivia demanded, hands on her hips. Elliot turned back to look at her. She narrowed her eyes at him. She wanted him to admit that he was sympathizing with him because of their similar working class backgrounds.

Elliot said nothing. He went inside and shut the door.

Sighing, she turned around and left. When she got back to her desk, she pulled out her cell phone and dialed Alex.

Alex smiled to see her name on the display. “Hey, Liv.”

“Hey. Are you at your place?”

“Yep,” Alex answered. “You still at the station?”

“Yeah. I had to look up something for Elliot. I should be done here soon, though.”

“Good,” Alex responded. “I’ll be waiting.” When they hung up, she went upstairs to change out of her jeans and sweater into something more comfortable.

**************

An hour later, Alex’s doorbell rang again. She had just finished lighting the last of the candles. Blowing out the match, she went to the door. She was glad to look through the peephole and see Olivia.

“Hey, beautiful,” she said, giving her a quick kiss on the lips as soon as the door closed.

“Hey, yourself,” Olivia answered. She smiled when she saw that Alex was wearing nothing but a short lavender silk robe. “Perhaps I’m not appropriately dressed.”

Alex grinned and ran a hand down her arm. “You look great.”

Olivia followed her through the foyer and looked around the living room. The aroma of the candles floated lightly to her nostrils. “What’s the special occasion?”

“You,” Alex replied, pulling her to her for another kiss. She then took her hand and led her to the kitchen.

Olivia sat down at the island. “So what culinary delights will I get to enjoy tonight?”

Alex gave her a sly smile. “You sure you want the full list?”

Olivia smirked. “Maybe keep that last one to yourself.”

“Who said it would be last?” Alex teased.

Olivia chuckled. “You have a dirty mind.”

“Which you love.” Alex poured a glass of Prosecco and handed it to her. “To wash away a stressful day.”

The crisp, delicate sparkling wine awakened her palate as it flowed down her throat. “This is great, Alex.”

“Thanks,” she responded. She began finely chopping a couple sprigs of rosemary.

“What are we having?” Olivia asked.

“You’ll see soon enough,” Alex responded. She pushed the small pile to the side and chopped some shallots.

“Nice to watch the chef in action,” Olivia said, taking another sip of wine.

“I’m much better at um, other types of action,” Alex replied, grinning deviously.

Olivia laughed and rolled her eyes. “Oh, don’t I know.”

Alex took a package out of the refrigerator. She opened the butcher paper to reveal lamb chops.

“Ooh, lamb!” Olivia said excitedly.

Alex grinned and seasoned them with salt and pepper. “Glad you like.” She pulled out a pan and set it on the stove. After pouring some olive oil into it, she added the rosemary and lamb chops.

“That rosemary smells really good,” Olivia said, getting off the stool and walking over to her.

“And it’s perfect with lamb,” Alex replied. After searing the chops on each side, she put them in a baking dish, covered them with foil, and placed them in the oven to stay warm.

Olivia hopped up on the counter. “So what’s the next step, chef?”

“Making the sauce,” Alex said, grinning and taking ingredients out of her cabinets. She unscrewed the cap of the honey. Olivia dipped a finger in and sucked it off.

“You like honey?” Alex asked.

“I love it,” Olivia answered.

“You know…there are a lot of uses for it,” Alex replied. She pushed all the ingredients to the side except the honey.

Olivia noticed the feral look in her eyes and felt herself getting wet. Locking eyes with her, Alex pulled the sash of her robe and it easily fell open. She slid it back off her shoulders and let it fall to the floor. Tucking a hand in Olivia’s jeans, she quickly pulled her forward. After unbuckling her belt, she pulled it through the loops and discarded it on the floor. She then unzipped her jeans and motioned for her to lift her hips. When she’d obliged, she pulled her pants and underwear down her legs.

She captured her mouth in a warm, sensuous kiss as she reached down to dip her fingers in the jar. Without breaking contact with her mouth, she spread a generous amount of honey all over her center. Olivia gave a long, loud moan at how good and smooth the sweet coating felt. Alex lifted up her sweater and bra. With the honey left on her fingers, she rubbed it on her taut nipples.

As Alex hungrily sucked her nipples, Olivia closed her eyes and reached forward to knead her breasts. Each time she pulled or squeezed her nipples, Alex sucked harder.

The succulent honey dripped from her sex onto the counter. Dipping her fingers between her warm folds, Alex picked up some of her honey-soaked wetness and traced the very tips of her fingers across Olivia’s lips. She enveloped her mouth again before licking a sticky-sweet trail all the way to her sex.

Alex swirled her tongue over her folds to lap up some of the thick, gooey liquid. She then licked all around her clit. When she took her hardened nub into her mouth and sucked hard, Olivia threw her head back against the cabinets.

“You ok, sweetie?” Alex asked, pulling back and looking up at her.

“Never better,” Olivia mumbled, pushing her face back between her legs.

Alex ravished her sex like there was no tomorrow. Then she thrust her tongue deep inside her opening, which was begging to be fucked. Tangling a hand in her hair, Olivia pressed her thighs against her cheeks and shouted in pleasure. She didn’t even bother trying to contain herself because she knew she couldn’t. Alex grabbed her ass and drove her sex on her tongue.

For a brief moment, Olivia wondered if Alex was going to get too carried away and her ass would fly straight off the counter. However, this thought quickly vanished as Alex’s tongue delved deeper inside her tunnel.

Olivia’s legs soon began trembling and Alex could feel the vibrations against her face. She let out a final scream and tightened her grip on her cheeks as her orgasm tore through her. Alex made sure not to miss a single drop of her delicious nectar as it rushed forward.

After licking her center clean, she stood up straight and kissed her intensely. Olivia sucked her tongue into her mouth, tasting the remnants of sweet honey mixed with her own juices.

Chapter 38 (Part 2)

Fri, 19 Dec 2008 02:00:32 GMT

Alex smiled back. “Gladly.” Keeping one hand firmly on her wrists, she leaned down to capture her mouth in a hot, steamy kiss. With the other, she twisted her nipple.

Olivia moaned against her mouth as Alex twisted harder in the opposite direction before moving on to the other nipple. The hold on her wrists tightened. Alex flicked the erect nipple and massaged it gently to soothe some of the sting. She then repeated her actions of pain followed by comfort a few more times on each nipple.

When Olivia could no longer stand it, she pulled back from the kiss and bit her neck. Alex cried out and dropped her arm, freeing Olivia’s wrists and leaving bright red marks on them.

Olivia slapped her ass hard. “Say my name,” she ordered.

“L-Liv,” Alex breathed, feeling her wetness starting to drip onto Olivia’s stomach.

Olivia leaned forward and bit her nipple. Alex let out another sharp cry. Olivia pinched her clit and said, “I can’t hear you.”

“Liv!” Alex screamed. She slid down so her center was atop Olivia’s and began a slow but steady rhythm.

Olivia squeezed her ass and started grinding in rhythm to Alex’s rocking hips. Their wetness blended and the feeling of their folds repeatedly sliding into and over each other’s was electrifying. Alex reached down to fondle her breasts as she picked up the pace, driving her sex into hers. With each forward thrust of Alex’s pelvis, Olivia felt herself rising closer to unbridled rapture.

A satisfied moan escaped Alex’s lips when Olivia slapped her ass again. The sting from the slap only fused with the fire building inside her sex and heightened the pleasure she was feeling. She started bouncing up and down, grinding her stiff clit harder and faster against Olivia’s.

Neither of them could hold out any longer. “Oh fuck, Alex!” Olivia screamed as both their bodies started quaking.

Alex collapsed on top of her and struggled to catch her breath. Their hearts raced against each other. “Oh god, Liv, that was too fucking amazing.”

Olivia rubbed her back and smiled. “So I take it it was good for you, too?”

Alex kissed her. “Sometimes you make me so high I don’t ever wanna come back down.”

Olivia stared into her eyes for a moment. “I know the feeling.”

Alex ran a finger along her collarbone. “I’ve wanted to taste you all night,” she murmured.

“Is that so?” Olivia teased.

“Yes. You didn’t think I was done with you, did you?”

“What have you done to earn it?”

“Didn’t I just work pretty hard?” Alex asked, kissing along her jawline.

When Alex’s lips touched the hollow of her throat, Olivia felt her heart skip a beat. “Mmm…I like it when you work hard.”

“Please…Liv, just give me a little taste,” she begged, running a finger down her stomach.

Olivia bent her knees and spread her legs apart. Alex licked her lips at the beautiful center glistening with arousal that was in front of her. She could barely contain her desire. She looked up into her eyes for permission. When Olivia nodded, Alex nestled between her legs and placed tender kisses all over her sex. She then slowly licked off some of the wetness before completely burying her face in it. With each stroke of her tongue, her nose brushed her clit and caused her to whimper. Alex ran her fingers through her soaked curls and tugged softly. With her other hand, she caressed her thighs as she drew out moan after moan from her lover.

She then proceeded to slowly push her tongue inside, moving it in circles and relishing the fact of tasting her very core. As she explored her slick walls, she lightly let her fingers trace her inner folds.

“Baby, you’re driving me crazy,” Olivia gasped.

Alex pulled back momentarily and replied with a wicked smile, “Sweetie, I’ve only just begun.”

Olivia bucked her hips as Alex’s rigid tongue thrust wildly in and out of her. Alex grabbed her hips to still her. As her nails scraped down her ass, Olivia bit her lip and threw her head back.

Alex slowed her pace somewhat before temporarily leaving her opening to suck and lick her folds. Looking up into her eyes, she took her quivering clit in her mouth and sucked hard.

Olivia grabbed the sheets and tried her hardest not to rip them to shreds. They both knew she was close. Alex pushed two fingers inside her and pumped as she continued to suck. With each thrust she delved longer and deeper because she knew Olivia loved that, too. Before long, her center quivered and began clenching and releasing against her fingers. Her body tensed up and started trembling, trapping her fingers inside, before she exploded all over her. The look of raw ecstasy on Olivia’s face as each orgasm hit her caused Alex’s own orgasm to ripple through her body. When she had recovered, she licked away her juices and said, “Your come tastes so sweet.”

Olivia muttered several unintelligible words as she desperately tried to force her brain to function again. Alex moved up the bed and wrapped an arm around her. She brushed away the wisps of hair that had become matted to Olivia’s forehead and asked, “You ok?”

Olivia nodded. “Maybe I’ll be ok sometime before the year is over.”

Alex grinned and kissed her. “Beautiful ending to a beautiful night, huh?”

Olivia smiled and cuddled closer to her. “I’ll say. But I was right.”

“About what?”

“I knew you couldn’t control yourself.”

**************

Olivia awoke the next morning to a tray being placed across her. “Wake up, sleepyhead,” Alex said.

Olivia sat up and looked at the food before her. Alex had prepared bacon, two eggs over-easy, and pancakes with fresh strawberries and whipped cream. “Oh wow. You went all out.”

“It wasn’t any trouble,” Alex replied.

Olivia picked up her fork. “I’m starved,” she said, digging in.

Alex smiled. “I figured you would be after last night.”

Olivia smirked. “Don’t flatter yourself.” She noticed that Alex had put on a shirt. “Didn’t feel like cooking in the buff, huh?”

“Cooking naked isn’t any fun if you’re not there to watch,” Alex said, pulling off the shirt in one swift motion and cuddling up to her. “And you looked so peaceful sleeping that I didn’t wanna wake you.”

“Don’t try to distract me when I’m hungry,” Olivia joked.

Alex dipped a strawberry in some whipped cream and fed it to her. Noticing that she had a little whipped cream on the corner of her mouth, she leaned in and licked it away.

“Feeling adventurous?”

“Just a little,” Alex responded. She brushed some hair behind Olivia’s ear. “I can’t get over how gorgeous you are when you wake up.”

Olivia ate another forkful and drank some orange juice before responding. “Apparently neither can your wandering hands.”

“They have good taste,” Alex whispered. She looked at the rays of sunlight coming through the bedroom window. “It looks like it’ll be a beautiful day.”

“Hopefully it won’t be too long of a day.”

“Nothing like a hearty meal to bring you comfort. I’ve missed cooking for you. May I make you dinner tonight?”

Smiling at her, Olivia answered, “Well, I don’t know what time I’m getting off, but I wouldn’t mind another home-cooked meal.”

“Good. You can just drop by my place after you leave the station. What would you like?”

“I don’t know, surprise me.”

When Olivia ate her last bite and drank the rest of her juice, Alex said, “You know…now we can work off some of those calories by exercising.”

Olivia raised an eyebrow. “In this freezing weather?”

Alex kissed her shoulder and grinned. “Actually, I wasn’t planning on leaving this bed. We can do some of those horizontal aerobics.” She dipped her finger in the whipped cream left on the plate and sensually sucked it off.

Olivia grinned. “Ooh, naughty.”

“I can be much, much naughtier,” Alex assured her, starting to kiss her neck. She picked up more whipped cream and traced it on her neck before slowly licking it off.

Olivia shivered. “Mmm…”

“I also know of another great place on your body where whipped cream would be positively delicious,” she whispered, pulling the sheet off Olivia’s lap and putting the tray on her nightstand.

Olivia closed her eyes. “Alex, you know I have to work today. I need to get ready soon.”

“Can’t hurry love,” Alex said, scooping up the rest of the whipped cream and disappearing between her legs.

Chapter 38 (Part 1)

Fri, 19 Dec 2008 01:57:06 GMT

Chapter 38: Can’t Hurry Love

A couple hours later, Olivia woke up. She sat up to find Alex fast asleep. Nudging her gently, she said, “Hey, I’m gonna go to bed. You coming?”

Alex nodded groggily. “I just need to shower first and then I’ll be there.”

They went in the bedroom and started to get undressed. Olivia was just about to undo her bra when Alex touched her shoulders and said softly, “Don’t worry about it. Let me get that.”

“With your teeth or your fingers?” Olivia joked.

“Whatever you’ll let me use,” Alex replied, walking her fingers across a shoulder and down her spine.

Olivia didn’t even bother trying to suppress the tingle that went through her. “F-fingers will be just fine.”

Alex grinned and unlatched her bra. Resting her fingers on the straps, she asked, “May I?”

Olivia nodded. Alex slid them off her shoulders and said, “There. I’d say you’re good to go.”

Olivia turned around to face her and pulled the bra off the rest of the way. Not able to take her eyes off her breasts laid bare before her, Alex gasped and gulped loudly.

“Now let me do you,” Olivia murmured.

“Yes, please,” Alex replied.

Olivia stepped so close to her that there was virtually no space between them. Staring into Alex’s eyes intently, she reached behind her and unlatched her bra with a quick flick of her wrist.

A shiver coursed through Alex’s body as Olivia stepped back a little, pulled the straps off her shoulders, and slid the cups off her breasts. Her nipples immediately perked as they were released to the air. Olivia bit her lip at how delicious her breasts looked.

Her reaction did not go unnoticed by Alex. “Sure you don’t wanna join me?” she hoped.

Olivia looked up and flashed a smile. “Nah.” She pointed her thumb in the direction of her bed and said, “I’ll just wait for you over there.”

Alex nodded regretfully. “Ok. I’ll be done soon.”

About 15 minutes later, Alex slipped into bed beside Olivia. Placing a hand on her shoulder, she asked, “You asleep?”

Olivia turned toward her. “No, not yet.” Her nose grazed her shoulder and she said, “Mmm…you smell so nice.”

Alex snuggled under the covers and put an arm around Olivia’s waist. “Thanks.”

Olivia opened her eyes to meet Alex’s. “By the way, thanks for the movie.”

“No problem. I was glad to have your company.”

“It was nice sharing that carton of popcorn.”

“Yeah…but even nicer was getting to share the night with you,” Alex replied.

Olivia smiled. “It was a Saturday night well spent.”

Alex let her fingers dance at the small of her back. “It’s so peaceful here.”

Olivia laid her cheek in the crook of her neck. “I agree.”

Alex took great comfort in something that Olivia hadn’t done in a long time. She loved it when Olivia let her guard down and was open with her, whether through gestures or words. She was especially grateful for instances like this because she knew Olivia had become more reserved with her feelings in order to protect her heart. She kissed her forehead.

Olivia grinned up at her. “What was that for?”

“You’ve taken such good care of me these past few days. That’s my way of saying thanks. Besides, I think you could use a little TLC.”

“Just what type of TLC?” Olivia asked.

“Close your eyes,” Alex responded.

Olivia did as she was told. She soon felt soft, full lips brush hers. When Alex pulled back, she opened her eyes and asked, “That’s a thank you, too?”

“Yes. And this is an ‘I love you,’” Alex responded, enveloping her mouth and kissing her passionately.

Olivia kissed back with equal fervor. She basically had warning bells going off in every corner of her mind but she couldn’t stop herself. The strange thing was that she wasn’t sure she wanted to stop.

Alex’s nipples strained against the satin of her nightgown. Olivia slid a finger under one of the spaghetti straps and traced a pattern on her shoulder as their tongues wrestled.

Alex tenderly ran her hands over her shoulders and down her back. She couldn’t wait to lavish every single curve with kisses.

Olivia rubbed the back of Alex’s thigh. She couldn’t help the way she felt with her and she didn’t know how something that felt so right could at the same time feel so wrong. She moved her hand over to the inside of her thigh and could feel the heat radiating from her center. She just wanted to envelop herself in that warmth and forget all the reasons why she shouldn’t. Alex’s words echoed in her head: Listen, let’s just be ourselves tonight, ok? My feet get tired from running from myself all the time.

Alex broke away from her mouth and moved behind her. Pushing her hair to the side, she blew lightly on the nape of her neck. Goosebumps arose all along Olivia’s arms and her nipples tightened more. She bit her lip when warm lips touched her skin, followed by a soft tongue. Alex had always loved the way her skin tasted and she knew just what would drive her wild. As she continued to tease her neck, she reached around front, lifted up her shirt and traced her navel with her finger.

Olivia tried her best not to get lost in the multiple sensations fusing inside her. She turned around and pulled Alex’s nightgown over her head. She could smell her arousal on her lace panties.

Alex removed Olivia’s pajama bottoms. She was pleased to see that she had on no underwear at all. Licking her lips, she began caressing her thigh as Olivia pulled her in for another kiss. “Mmm, Liv,” she moaned against her mouth. She couldn’t get enough of the softness of her lips or the taste of her talented tongue. She kissed her harder as she began to rub her sex.

Olivia threaded a hand in her long locks and twisted. Her hair had always felt so soft and fine beneath her fingers and she loved playing in it. She used her other hand to tenderly massage a breast, tweaking the already painfully stiff nipple.

Alex let out another satisfied moan and moved her hand up to stroke her stomach under her top. She was inching her way up to a breast when Olivia suddenly broke away from her mouth and motioned for her to lie down on the bed. Once she’d complied, she bent down and slowly removed her panties with her teeth.

Alex hissed in pleasure as Olivia’s teeth scraped against her skin. She could feel her warm breath against her center and it just made her wetter. It had been so long since she’d felt Olivia’s mouth there and the anticipation of getting such a treat again was about to drive her absolutely mad. Her hips actually left the bed when Olivia ever so lightly ran her fingertips over her swollen folds.

“You’re so fucking wet,” Olivia whispered.

“Oh, Liv I can’t help it,” Alex gasped. “You know what you do to me.”

Olivia grinned wickedly. “That I do.” She pulled off her top and straddled her just below her center. Alex reached up to grab her breasts but Olivia swatted her hands away and said, “No. Not until I give you permission.” Leaning down, she brushed her lips over her neck and gently nipped her collarbone. She then kissed a trail between her breasts before moving down her stomach.

Alex grunted in frustration when her lips left her skin right before reaching the neatly trimmed triangle between her legs. She wondered if she was going to torture her all night long, but then again, she didn’t mind that one bit.

Moving back up her torso, Olivia licked along the underside of a breast and then circled her nipple with her tongue, causing Alex to sigh contently. As she began sucking one breast, she squeezed the other, rolling the nipple back and forth with her thumb and forefinger.

After what seemed like an eternity, Olivia brought her attention to her center, which desperately ached for her touch. She parted her folds with her tongue and licked along the length of her sex.

“That feels so good,” Alex whispered, letting out a low guttural moan as she felt her clit get hard under her tongue.

Olivia licked patterns on her sex, causing her to throw her head from side to side against the pillows. Massaging her folds with her fingers, she kissed her clit softly and sucked it into her mouth.

When she finally pushed her tongue inside her, Alex thought she was going to explode right then. But she was determined to hold out to prolong the sensations. Olivia flicked her tongue from side to side and then up and down before starting to thrust gently.

Alex’s eyelids fluttered while she moved her hips in motion to her tongue. “Don’t stop, Liv,” she begged.

Olivia began alternating between thrusting her tongue and her fingers inside her. Whenever her fingers were inside her, she pushed upward before twisting against the walls of her sex as her thumb stimulated her clit.

“Deeper, baby,” Alex ordered.

Olivia thrust her fingers deeper and harder as she moved up her body to suck her nipples. Alex massaged her scalp and moaned loudly.

When she knew Alex was close, she grazed her teeth over her clit as she hit her G spot with her fingers. Alex’s eyes rolled back in her head. A few minutes later she yelled, “Oh shit, Liv, I’m coming!”

Her entire body shook violently as her fluids coursed down her open thighs and dripped onto the sheets. Each swipe of Olivia’s tongue evoked another shudder. Olivia moved up her body and held her as her orgasms finally abated.

“Come here, you,” Alex said, pulling her directly on top of her and enveloping her lips. She then shifted their bodies so they were on their sides.

Olivia once again let herself get lost in the softness. Alex pulled her bottom lip between her teeth before capturing both again, claiming them as her own. When her lips parted, she snaked the tip of her tongue between them, running them over her teeth and then battling her tongue for dominance.

Alex ran her fingers through her hair. She could smell the faint traces of Olivia’s perfume as she left her mouth and kissed her neck. Gently turning her over on her stomach, she started placing kisses down her spine. “You like that?” she asked softly.

“Oh yes,” Olivia answered.

Alex ran her hands down her back and over the curve of her ass. She again lowered her lips to kiss the supple flesh. Continuing her journey downward, she kissed the back of her toned thighs.

Olivia could feel her wetness spreading against the sheets. She turned over and leaned back against the pillows. Finally deciding to give Alex what she wanted, she took her hands and placed them on her full breasts. Alex kneaded them gently as Olivia moaned softly and intently watched her fingers working. She soon replaced them with her tongue, licking in long, firm strokes.

Olivia drew her breath in sharply as Alex began sucking her breast. “Oh fuck,” she moaned, throwing her head back.

Alex took more of her breast into her mouth. Olivia put her hands on her shoulders and ordered, “Suck harder.”

Alex was all too happy to do so. After several more moments of holding her nipple captive, she moved on to the other breast. She licked all over the soft flesh before mercilessly teasing the nipple.

As her mouth worked its magic, Olivia’s breathing became more and more ragged. When Alex bit her nipple, the sensations shot down to her sex like a lightning bolt. Olivia dug her nails into her back and dragged them downward, eliciting a sharp gasp from Alex.

“So you like it a little rough, huh?” Alex teased.

Olivia quickly flipped them over. “You know it.”

“I can do that,” Alex said with a devious grin. She flipped them back over and straddled her. She pinned her arms above her head and stared down into her eyes. “You don’t know how much I’ve missed this.”

Olivia smiled. “Why don’t you show me?”

Chapter 37 (Part 2)

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 02:08:15 GMT

“Should we go back to your place or mine?” Olivia asked after their movie ended.

“How about yours?” Alex suggested. She loved the warmth and coziness of Olivia’s apartment, and she also knew there was no chance of Robert dropping by.

“Mine it is,” Olivia said.

Once they were back at her apartment, Olivia turned on the heat as Alex shivered. “How about a nice hot cup of cocoa?” she asked.

Alex smiled. “I’d like that.”

A few minutes later, Olivia returned with two steaming mugs of hot chocolate with marshmallows floating at the brim.

“Thank you,” Alex said, taking her cup.

“You’re welcome,” Olivia replied, sitting down beside her.

Alex looked out the window to see light snowflakes falling. “Boy, am I glad I’m not out there now.”

“Yeah, tell me about it,” Olivia agreed, taking a long, satisfying sip of her cocoa.

“You know, I really appreciate you letting me spend the night again.”

Olivia smiled. “No problem.”

“I loved having marshmallows in my cocoa as a child.”

Olivia laughed. “From the looks of it, you still do.”

“What can I say?” Alex asked with a grin. “They’re just as good now as they were then.”

“You know what’s also good? White hot chocolate.”

“Ooh, yes! I’ll be sure to pick some up so the next time you come over to my place, I can make it for you.”

Olivia’s smile faded. “I take it you probably won’t have a reason to be there much now. You have a new one.”

“Whenever you want me to be there, I will,” Alex said, touching her shoulder gently.

Olivia looked down at her hand. “Alex, did you just stealthily cop a feel?”

“I was reaching for your shoulder!”

Olivia smirked. “Is that what they call it nowadays?”

“Well, you can cop one on me so we’ll be even.”

Olivia’s jaw dropped. “Alex!”

“Hey, I was only half-joking!”

They finished their mugs of hot chocolate as they watched the snow continue to fall. “Serena and Kay really chose a wonderful restaurant,” Olivia said.

Alex nodded. “I know. Thanks again for dinner.”

Olivia waved her off. “Oh, it was nothing.”

“No, quite the contrary. It really meant a lot to me,” Alex replied, her eyes locking with Olivia’s.

For a moment Olivia was speechless. When she found her voice again, she spluttered, “I…um, I’ll go wash our mugs.” She stood up and quickly left the room.

Alex sighed and leaned back against the arm of the sofa. When Olivia returned, she asked, “Did I upset you?”

Olivia shook her head. “No, it just gets hard sometimes. You know…knowing you’re with someone else.”

Alex moved closer to her and stroked her arm. “I know…but he’s not here and most importantly, he’s not you.”

“I…I don’t want to think about him anymore tonight,” Olivia responded.

“I don’t either,” Alex said. “Listen, let’s just be ourselves tonight, ok? My feet get tired from running from myself all the time.”

Alex’s words resonated with Olivia in a profound way. After taking a few moments to ponder them, she decided, “Ok.”

Alex smiled and lay back on the sofa again. She patted her lap. “Come on. Lean back and let me hold you.”

Olivia turned around and leaned back in her arms as Alex wrapped them snugly around her waist. “You’re not gonna try to slide your hands in my pants, are you?” she teased.

Alex kissed the top of her head and rubbed her stomach. “Only if you want me to.”

After several minutes, Olivia asked, “Are we just gonna lie here all night?”

“I honestly wouldn’t have a problem with that.”

“Then I’m just gonna use your boobs for a pillow,” Olivia said, getting comfortable.

Alex grinned. “Be my guest.”

“I’m not gonna wake up naked and confused, am I?”

Laughing heartily, Alex said, “You’re so silly.”

Smiling, Olivia closed her eyes and replied, “Gotta love a chick with a sense of humor, huh?”

Alex squeezed her waist. “I sure do.”

The Course of True Love: Chapter 37 (Part 1)

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 02:02:47 GMT

Chapter 37: Windows

“We have a few hours before our movie. What do you wanna do?” Alex asked.

Olivia threw the remote down on the sofa and replied, “After today I think I need a power nap.”

“May I join you?” Alex asked hopefully.

Olivia cocked an eyebrow. “That depends. Will you be sleeping or trying to seduce me?”

Smiling, Alex rolled her eyes. “I promise I’ll behave.”

They walked to the bedroom and Olivia put her cell phone down on the nightstand. “Don’t let me sleep for too long.”

“Will you put mine over there?” Alex asked.

“Sure,” Olivia said, taking her phone from her. After putting it down, she pulled back the covers. Sitting down on the edge of the bed, she took off her shoes and slowly stretched out on the mattress. “This bed feels so good.”

Alex pulled the covers over them and rolled on her side. “And warm.”

Olivia turned over to face her. “You just like being in my bed,” she said with a smirk.

Alex grinned. “Who wouldn’t?”

A few moments of comfortable silence passed. Neither could take her eyes off the other. Alex gingerly brushed some of her hair out of her face. “You really are beautiful, you know that?”

Olivia burst out laughing. Alex looked confused. “Did I say something wrong?”

“I half expected you to start singing, ‘You are so beautiful,’” Olivia teased.

Alex laughed softly. “Can you ever just take a compliment?”

“I’m afraid I’ve reached my compliment quota for the month,” Olivia responded with a lopsided grin.

Alex poked her in the arm. “Smartass.”

A couple minutes later, Olivia asked, “Alex, are you staring at my boobs?”

Alex blushed. “Well…when you lay like that in a tank top, they look like they’re about to pop out!”

“Horny much?”

“When it comes to you, yes,” Alex admitted.

“I guess honesty is the best policy,” Olivia quipped. She closed her eyes and said, “Ok. Power nap starting now.”

It wasn’t long before she was asleep. Alex watched her for a few minutes before drifting off, too.

Half an hour later, Alex’s cell phone started ringing. Olivia jerked awake and mumbled, “So much for the nap.” She picked it up and looked at the outside display screen. “It’s Serena,” she said, passing it to her.

Alex suppressed a yawn and flipped open her phone. “Hello?”

“Hey, how are you?” Serena asked.

“I’m good. What’s up?”

“Well, Kay and I are going out for Japanese and we were wondering if you’d like to join us.”

“Hold on just a sec,” Alex told her. Putting her hand over the speaker, she said, “Serena just asked me if I wanted to meet her and Kay for dinner. Wanna go?”

Olivia sat up and shrugged. “Sure.”

“Ok, we’re on,” Alex told Serena. “You don’t mind if Liv comes, do you?”

Serena smiled. “Not at all. Meet us at Matsuri in an hour?”

“That’s perfect. See you then,” Alex replied before closing her phone.

“Where are we eating?” Olivia asked.

Alex stretched her arms above her head. “Matsuri.”

Olivia looked down at her tank top and sweatpants and chuckled. “Somehow I don’t think this outfit is appropriate. I’m gonna shower and get ready.” Smirking at Alex, she added, “No peeking.”

Alex snapped her fingers. “Damn, Liv, you’re no fun.” She got out of bed and started walking toward the door. “I’ll give you some privacy.”

Several minutes later, Olivia came out in the blue cashmere sweater Alex had bought her for Christmas and a pair of sexy, tight jeans. Alex stood up from the sofa. She let her eyes travel over her body and smiled. “Wow. You look just…amazing.”

“Me or my cleavage, Cabot?” Olivia teased.

Alex looked up to meet her eyes. “Both. Everything’s part of the same lovely package, you know.”

Olivia walked toward her until they were only a few inches apart. “Are you planning on flirting shamelessly all night?” she asked in a husky voice.

Alex shivered. “If you keep teasing me, that won’t be all I have planned,” she countered.

Olivia let out a laugh and shook her head. “I should stop while I’m ahead.”

Alex was disappointed. “What’s the harm in flirting?”

Olivia cocked her head and gave her a look. “Because flirting leads to other things.”

“I can control myself.”

“Famous last words,” Olivia said. She went to grab her coat and scarf. “Come on. Let’s catch a cab.”

**************

Once they had all met up, Serena introduced her girlfriend to Olivia. “Kay, this is Detective Olivia Benson of Manhattan SVU. Liv, this is Kay Hartley of Whitman Worth & Hartley.”

Olivia offered her hand. “Defense attorney, huh?”

Kay gladly shook it. “Yeah. I know you probably don’t like us very much, but I promise I do have a soul.”

Olivia laughed. “Good to know. How’d you manage to get last minute reservations?”

Kay smiled. “I pulled a few strings.”

After the hostess had seated them in a booth on the main floor, Alex looked up at the enormous paper lanterns ornamented with Japanese calligraphy. They hung from a high vaulted ceiling with wooden ribs. “This décor is beautiful.”

“I agree,” Olivia replied, looking around and appreciating the cavernous, dark wood interior.

“It’s very romantic,” Serena said, tucking some hair behind Kay’s ear.

Smiling, Olivia waggled her eyebrows. “I take it that’s a plus, right?” she teased.

“You know, for a cop you clean up well,” Kay complimented. “I’m honored to be dining with a sexy sex detective.”

Alex looked at Olivia and smiled. You’re not the only one, she thought.

Serena rolled her eyes. “Liv, please excuse my girlfriend’s ridiculous flirting.”

Olivia chuckled. “I happen to think ‘sexy sex detective’ has a nice ring to it.”

“You should have a shirt made,” Alex joked.

“Perhaps I will,” Olivia said.

A waitress came over to explain the menu and specials. She was soon joined by the sake sommelière, who offered suggestions and expertly guided them through the large selection of tantalizing sakes. After discussing the wine and food options with Serena, Kay ordered for them, followed by Alex and Olivia.

Serena smiled at Kay. “Wow, I didn’t know you could speak Japanese. The sommelière looked like she was pleased as well.”

Kay grinned. “There’s a lot you don’t know about me.”

Alex looked from one to the other. “Good to know you two are still getting along so great.”

Kay put her hand on Serena’s back. “What can I say? She’s an amazing woman. I can’t get enough of her.”

Serena grinned from ear to ear. “You’re too generous.”

Kay kissed her on the nose. “I just call ’em like I see ’em, sweetie.”

A server brought a carafe of sake and some glasses of water. Alex poured some for herself and Olivia and said, “Great sake is the perfect ending to any day.”

“I agree,” Olivia replied, taking a sip.

“I can think of another…” Kay said, rubbing Serena’s shoulder and whispering something in her ear that made her blush.

“Doesn’t take a rocket scientist to guess that one,” Alex quipped.

“Seems Serena’s got herself a wild one,” Olivia added.

Kay raised an eyebrow and gave her a sly smile. “You look like a wild one, yourself.” She spared a glance at Alex to gauge her reaction.

Alex busied herself with drinking her sake. “The ladies certainly never get bored,” Olivia said with a wink.

“I bet they don’t,” Kay said. She turned her attention to Alex again. “It’s a pity you don’t play for our team. Liv seems like quite a catch.”

Alex put her glass down and looked at Olivia. “Yes, she is. She’ll make some lucky woman very happy one day.” Kay noticed an almost wistful tone in her voice as she said it.

Serena nudged her girlfriend in the ribs. Kay turned to her with an innocent look and said, “What, baby? I’m just making conversation.”

Serena smiled and rolled her eyes. “Sure you are.”

Luckily for Alex, Olivia changed the subject. The four of them engaged in lighthearted conversation over the next several minutes. In fact, they were so entrenched in dialogue that it didn’t seem long before two waitresses were bringing their dishes.

Olivia picked up her chopsticks and dipped a piece of yellowtail sashimi in the ginger vinegar sauce. “This is the best hamachi I’ve ever had!”

Alex took a bite of her sake black cod. “This is absolutely delicious. Melts in your mouth!” Holding out her fork, she said, “Taste some, Liv.”

Olivia happily accepted. “That is good.” She placed a piece of fatty tuna sushi on Alex’s plate.

Alex dipped it in a little of Olivia’s wasabi and some soy sauce and ate it. “Now I know why you love otoro so much, Liv.”

Olivia smiled. “Can’t go wrong with it. Tastiest tuna out there.” She picked up another piece to eat herself as Alex continued eating her cod.

Kay and Serena exchanged bites of kobe beef tataki and sea scallops before indulging in their sushi and sashimi platter. From time to time, they gave each other little kisses during the meal. Alex and Olivia enjoyed their plates as they admired the level of comfort Kay and Serena had with each other.

Olivia took a sip of sake and asked, “They’re a beautiful couple, aren’t they?”

“Yes,” Alex said. She reached for a piece of salmon nigiri and her chopsticks inadvertently met Olivia’s.

“Oh, sorry!” Olivia exclaimed. “You take it.”

“No, no, it’s ok. It’s the last piece, you go ahead. I’ll eat a piece of the pink snapper or fluke,” Alex insisted, gesturing at the sashimi nestled in the yuzu and ponzu sauces, respectively.

“How about we share it?”

Alex ran a hand over Olivia’s hair. “Ok.” She dipped the piece of sushi in soy sauce and fed Olivia half before eating the rest.

They were unaware that Kay and Serena had stopped to watch. Before Kay could say a word, Serena looked at her sternly and ordered, “Don’t.” Kay just grinned.

“You’ve got a little rice on the side of your mouth,” Alex said, reaching over to brush it away.

“And you’ve got a little soy sauce,” Olivia said, brushing it away and sucking it off her fingertip.

Serena almost choked on her eel cucumber maki. Kay folded her arms and leaned back satisfactorily when she noticed the slight flush that passed over Alex’s face.

“I think you’ll find that the ponzu tastes a little better,” Alex said, feeding her some fluke sashimi.

Olivia grinned. “You’re right about that.” She returned the favor.

A waiter came by to bring another carafe of sake and refill their water glasses. Once they had finished their meal, Kay asked, “Ok, so who has room left for dessert? My treat.”

Alex looked at Olivia, who shrugged. Smiling brightly at Kay, she answered, “Sure. Liv and I will have some.”

Kay ordered green tea tiramisu with red been ice cream for everyone. “Wow, sweetie. Great choice,” Serena complimented.

“I agree,” Olivia said, digging her fork into the smooth, creamy layers.

As they ate their dessert, Kay observed Olivia and Alex’s interaction. Even in the dimly lit restaurant, she noticed their subtle touches, the way Alex glanced at Olivia with such tenderness, the way Olivia’s eyes lit up when she did. Deciding to test them, she said, “So Alex, you and Robert still enjoying Park Avenue?”

Just as she expected, she noticed Olivia’s features hardening a bit. Alex also stiffened. She could tell they were both holding back their emotions.

“Um…” Alex began, “it has its perks. Very pleasant atmosphere.” She shot Olivia an apologetic glance, which Kay also noted.

This time Serena was the one to change the subject. “So what do you two have planned for the night?”

“We’re gonna see a movie,” Olivia answered.

“Which one?” Serena continued.

Alex smiled at Olivia. “We haven’t decided yet but we were leaning toward a comedy. It’s been a long week.”

Serena reached across the table and placed her hand on Alex’s comfortingly. “You holding up ok?” she asked, smiling sympathetically.

“Yeah,” Alex responded. She rubbed Olivia’s back. “Liv’s been a big help in getting me through it all.”

Kay grinned. “Ooh, a cop with a sensitive side. I like that.”

Serena shook her head. “Kay, you’re relentless.”

“Isn’t that what you love about me?” she asked, feeding her some dessert.

Alex dipped a piece of ladyfinger into some ice cream and ate it. “So what’s on the agenda for you two?” Grinning, she added, “Or do I want to know?”

Olivia laughed. “I think we all know the answer to that.”

“We may check out a jazz club and after that, I’m sure we’ll have a long and satisfying night,” Kay replied.

Serena laughed. “You’re gonna have me exhausted by Monday morning.”

“I intend on it,” Kay responded with a wicked grin.

A waitress brought their checks in a few minutes. Kay pulled out her credit card to pay for herself and Serena.

Alex opened her wallet but Olivia pulled out her own credit card. “I got it.”

“Liv, you sure?” Alex asked.

Olivia smiled. “Even cops like to splurge sometime.”

“Oh, Liv…you shouldn’t,” Alex insisted.

“Since you were so generous to pay for dinner at Sea Grill, let me pick up the tab here, ok?”

Alex tucked her credit card back inside and closed her wallet. “Ok,” she conceded. “Thank you.”

“You’re very welcome,” Olivia replied.

After the waitress returned with Kay and Olivia’s credit cards, Alex stood up and said with a grin, “Well, we have a movie to get to so I’m gonna have to say goodnight to you lovebirds.”

Olivia stood up, too. “Night.” She nodded at Kay and said, “It was nice meeting you.”

“You, too,” Kay replied, giving her a bright smile.

“Don’t wear yourselves out,” Alex added, winking.

“You lied to me,” Kay accused after they left.

Serena wrinkled her brow. “Excuse me?”

“You told me Alex wasn’t a lesbian.”

Serena sighed. “She’s not,” she lied.

“Oh, please! I saw the way she kept looking at Olivia. Those two are fucking!”

“They are not,” Serena insisted, rolling her eyes.

“Well, if they aren’t fucking now, they have fucked or want to be fucking sometime in the near future. What’s more, they look like they’re in love.”

“Have too many drinks, Kay?” Serena teased.

Now was the time for Kay to roll her eyes. “The way Alex looked at Robert as compared to Olivia was the difference between night and day. With him, everything seems forced. With Olivia, the affection seems natural and the funny thing is that she wasn’t even trying to come off as affectionate with her; she just couldn’t help it. You can’t fake the kind of intimacy they had.”

“If I didn’t know any better, I’d think you were a detective, not a lawyer.”

Kay smiled. “The eyes are the windows to the soul. Try looking at Alex’s next time and you’ll see what I’m talking about.”

Of course, Serena knew exactly what she was talking about but she would never out her best friend, not even to her girlfriend. The times she’d gone to Alex’s bureau so they could go to lunch, she’d also noticed that she had a blank, lifeless look in her eyes when she had been talking to Jim. The vacant look had only become more apparent with Robert since she was losing more of herself by actually dating and cohabitating with him. The only time she’d seen her eyes spring back to life was when she was with Olivia. For Alex’s sake, she only hoped that others weren’t as astute as herself and Kay.

Kay waved her hand in front of her face. “Earth to Serena!”

Serena shook herself out of her thoughts. “Sorry, I was just…thinking.”

“Thinking that maybe Alex has been keeping secrets from you?”

Serena smirked. “You’re really having fun with this, aren’t you?” Touching her shoulder, she stood up and said, “Come on. Let’s get outta here.”

**************

Chapter 62 (Part 2)

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 20:58:39 GMT

Title: Nichya (No One's)
Pairing: Alex/Olivia; Serena/Casey
Fandom: Law and Order SVU
Rating: R
Disclaimer: All characters are the property of Dick Wolf and NBC (except for the few I created).
Author's Notes: Olivia's look is from first season SVU; Alex's look is without the bangs. Nichya is Russian for "No One's."
Summary: Alternate Universe (A/U)--Sequel to "Fear Is the Enemy." Alex and Olivia are truly no one's but each other's, and they vow to let nothing tear them apart. But how long can they keep their relationship from their parents? What happens when unexpected obstacles are thrown into their path?

Abbie moved back from Alex and glared. She quickly rebuttoned her shirt. “Oh, great! The jealous lover arrives. Can’t handle the fact that Alex really wants me?”

“What parallel universe do you inhabit, bitch?” Olivia demanded, storming up to her. “Alex doesn’t want you. We all just wanted to give you enough rope to hang yourself to force you to stop fucking with our lives.”

Abbie folded her arms. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

Olivia shoved her into the wall. “Don’t play games with me, slut. We know you took those pics and sent them to my mom.”

“Slut? Oh, I know you’re not talking!”

Olivia backhanded her hard across the mouth. “Comments like that aren’t gonna be very good for your health.”

Abbie put her thumb to her lip and was infuriated when she saw blood. “I’m bleeding!”

“Oh, that’s just the beginning of it,” Olivia taunted.

Abbie looked at Alex. “You really wanna be with someone like that? It won’t be long before she gets so mad at you that she tries to hurt you. Clearly she can’t think of a way that doesn’t involve violence to solve her problems.”

Alex shook her head emphatically. “She’d never do that. She loves me too much.”

“Don’t be naïve, Alex. If she can break your heart, she can break the rest of you.”

Olivia glared and shoved her into the wall again. “Never gonna happen. I’d die before laying a hand on her!”

Abbie rolled her eyes condescendingly. “Right. Your anger is barely contained as it bubbles beneath the surface. You’re not to be trusted, especially with her heart. You’re just gonna break it again because you’re still the same coward you were before I transferred. This is what I wanted to get Alex to wake up and see before it’s too late.”

“What, bitch? You expected me to break Alex’s heart by running for the hills so she’d rush into your arms for comfort? Sorry, but that little plan backfired. It only brought us closer.”

Abbie smirked. “Closer? So fighting brings you closer, huh? Yeah, right! Little did you know, I was peeking around the corner when you guys were yelling your lungs out.”

Olivia laughed cruelly. “That was staged. You fell right into our trap, ya dumb whore.” She put her arm around Alex’s shoulders. “And Alex here is such a great little actress. Didn’t know my baby could cry right on cue.”

Abbie turned to Alex as her mouth dropped open in shock. “Are you serious?”

“Yes,” Alex answered, reaching behind her to fasten her bra back. “It was all planned. I don’t have feelings for you, Abbie. I thought I made that clear months ago. Now just leave us alone!”

Olivia laughed louder. “You’re such a sucker, Abbie. You thought I was history and you could weasel your way in. Not gonna happen—I don’t care if you send 1000 emails to my mom.”

Abbie sneered at her. “Please. You’ll be down on your knees in front of the nearest guy as soon as your mom threatens to kick your ass out.”

Olivia squarely let her fist connect with her face. The force of it knocked Abbie to the ground. She whimpered in pain.

“You have no clue how long I’ve wanted to do that,” Olivia said, standing over her with her fist still pulled back.

“Fuck you!” Abbie shouted, struggling to get to her feet. She tenderly touched a hand to her eye and hissed in pain. “Bitch, I better not have a black eye!”

“With how hard Olivia hit you, you better hope that’s all you have,” Alex said, folding her arms smugly.

Serena grinned and said to Casey, “I think black and blue will look very sexy on Abbie, what about you?”

Casey smiled. “It’ll be hot.”

Abbie glared at Alex. “I can’t believe you tricked me. I thought you were better than that, but it turns out that you’re just as much of a stupid bitch as Liv is. I must have really bad taste in girls.”

“Don’t you dare talk to Alex that way,” Olivia said, getting in her face again.

“I’m calling the cops,” Abbie threatened, pulling out her cell phone. “Your ass is going to jail for assault and battery, loser!”

“You do that and we’re all gonna tell Lexie exactly what went down tonight,” Serena said, staring her down.

Abbie scoffed. “Please. I’ve got her wrapped around my little finger. She’s not gonna believe you skanks.”

Casey laughed. “We thought you’d say that.” She pulled her hand from behind her back and revealed the camcorder. “But we got it all on video. Lexie should be getting a copy in her inbox shortly.”

Abbie looked horrified. “You wouldn’t! You’re just bluffing!”

Casey began playing the video. Olivia grinned wider and wider as Abbie looked more and more terrified with each second. “Turn it off! Turn it off!” Abbie begged.

Casey stopped the video. “What’s the problem, Abbie? Can’t stand to see your own work?”

“Yeah, I’m sure Lexie will love the part about how she’s just something to get your mind off Alex,” Serena added. “How many times did you lie and tell her you loved her?”

“You better not show her that!” Abbie warned.

“Then you better not get the authorities involved and you better not say or write anything else about us to anyone,” Alex demanded. “Not to mention that we have you on camera admitting that you outed Liv. If anything happens to her, the cops will come after you.”

Abbie turned from Alex to Olivia. “You think you’re slick, don’t you?”

Olivia walked forward until she’d backed Abbie into the wall. “I know the real reason you hate us. You see two people madly in love with one another and you can’t stand it. You long to have that in your own life but you know that you’ll never feel for Lexie what Alex feels for me or what I feel for her, and it eats you up inside. You delude yourself into thinking I’m horrible for Alex so you can feed your fantasy of getting her back one day and rationalize all the shit you’ve done. But it’s not working. Get it through your thick skull! It never will! Alex Cabot is mine forever.” With a smug smile, she stared Abbie down for a few more moments before turning to leave.

Abbie jumped on her back without warning. Olivia shoved her elbow back hard and it landed in Abbie’s stomach. However, Abbie was determined to hang on. Olivia moved backwards and purposely slammed her into the wall before grabbing her and throwing her over her shoulder onto the floor.

“Holy cow!” Casey exclaimed, cringing at the hard thud Abbie’s body had made.

“Oh my god!” Serena shouted.

“Liv, be careful!” Alex yelled.

“You’re a dirty whore!” Abbie said, grabbing a handful of Olivia’s hair and pulling as hard as she could. “I hope Alex STD-proofed her body before sleeping with you!”

Olivia punched her in the face again and Abbie screamed in pain and let go of her hair. “You don’t know when to quit, do you, cunt?”

Abbie slapped her in the face. “Ooh, Olivia Benson called me a cunt. It wounds!” she yelled sarcastically.

Olivia ignored the sting from the slap. “I’ll give you something that will!” she shouted, grabbing her hair and slamming the back of her head into the floor.

Abbie struggled to get the upper hand and flip them over but Olivia had her pinned firmly to the ground. So she did the one thing she knew would inflict the most damage—she grabbed Olivia’s necklaces and tugged with all her might.

But Olivia was not about to let her rip her necklaces off. She pried Abbie’s fingers away and painfully pulled them back until she screamed for mercy. Abbie felt like Olivia was going to break them off. “Stop! Please! You’re hurting me!”

“That’s kinda the point!” Olivia replied, punching her in the nose.

“Ok, we need to break this up before someone really gets hurt, and by someone, I mean Abbie,” Casey said, tossing the camera to Alex. She grabbed Olivia under her arms and tried to pull her away. Serena stepped in to help her girlfriend when she saw the strength of one wasn’t enough.

As soon as Olivia was off her, Abbie threw her leg out and kicked her in the thigh. Olivia grunted and kicked her in the shin. With tears streaming down her face, Abbie grabbed her leg with one hand and held her nose to stop the bleeding with the other. “Ow!” she screamed. “God, what did you do to me? Ow! Shit!”

Olivia yanked herself away from Casey and Serena. “Get off me! I’m ok,” she insisted, her chest heaving.

“Are you sure?” Alex asked, brushing some wisps of sweaty hair back from her face.

“Yeah,” Olivia gasped, sucking in air.

Alex carefully looked her up and down. “You don’t seem to have a scratch on you. Well, except for that bruise appearing on your thigh.”

“You should go clean yourself up,” Serena said to Abbie with a nasty smile. “Olivia did quite a number on you.”

“This isn’t over, bitch!” Abbie yelled at Olivia through her pain. “You’ll pay for this!”

“Abbie, don’t make me fuck you up even more than I have already. I was being pretty light on you since I didn’t wanna break any bones and ruin your gymnastics season.”

“Oh, fuck off!” Abbie cried. She slowly made her way to her feet. “Stay away from me for the rest of the break! All of you!” she demanded, limping off.

“God, I really hope she doesn’t call the cops,” Alex said once she was out of earshot.

“She won’t,” Olivia assured her. “She’s too afraid of Lexie seeing her infidelity.”

Serena looked at her watch. “Wow, it’s so late. Talk about a long day.”

“You’re tellin’ me,” Alex mumbled.

They all headed for the elevator. “Make sure to upload this video to your laptop,” Casey said. “We need to keep it forever to hold over her head.”

“Oh, don’t worry, I will,” Alex replied. “And I’ll send you guys copies as well to make sure it never disappears.”

A couple minutes later they were walking into Alex and Olivia’s room. “Man, I’m so tired,” Olivia groaned.

Alex smiled and ran a hand through Olivia’s hair. “I guess kicking asses is exhausting, huh?”

Olivia grinned. “Not as exhausting as other activities.”

Casey looked at Serena. “Uh oh.”

Serena shook her head. “Let us know if it’s about to get X rated up in here.”

Olivia propped herself on her elbow as Alex stroked her side soothingly. “Please. I’m sure you two got plenty X rated earlier,” she said.

“You know they did,” Alex added.

Serena and Casey both blushed. “We plead the fifth,” Serena said.

“Ditto,” Casey agreed.

“I’ll be right back,” Alex said. She went into the bathroom and got a washcloth. Then she came out, filled it with ice, and returned to Olivia. She put the ice against the bruise on her thigh.

Olivia chuckled. “Baby, you don’t have to do that. It’s just a bruise.”

“Yeah, Alex. Abbie is the one who needs medical attention,” Casey said with a laugh.

“I want it to clear up faster, Pookie,” Alex cooed.

“Oh, boy! She’s breaking out the pet names,” Serena teased.

“I don’t know how you managed not to interrupt sooner, Liv,” Alex said. “I could just imagine the steam coming out of your ears as soon as Abbie touched me.”

“Oh, we had to hold her back multiple times,” Serena told her.

Olivia frowned at the thought of Abbie’s actions. “I couldn’t stand to see her pawing you and putting her dirty mouth anywhere near you.”

“Well, at least she didn’t get to kiss me,” Alex said.

“She almost did and I would’ve had to rip her lips off her face!” Olivia replied.

Alex laughed. “She should be thankful you spared her another injury. She’s gonna have to use a lot of concealer!”

“I can’t believe she had the nerve to unlatch your bra!” Serena said, shaking her head.

“Or rub your thigh,” Casey added.

“I don’t wanna think about it anymore,” Olivia stated in annoyance.

“It’s ok, sweetie,” Alex responded. “I know how hard it was for you to watch. We’ll discuss something else…like the all nude massage I’m gonna give you.”

Olivia grinned. “With you naked or me?”

Alex smiled. “Both?”

Serena and Casey laughed. “Would you like some privacy?” Casey asked.

“Not yet,” Olivia said. “I think I can keep the beast within contained for a little longer.”

“But can Alex?” Serena teased.

Alex shifted the ice pack on Olivia’s thigh and said, “I think I can. My baby probably needs her rest tonight.”

“So what are we gonna do tomorrow?” Casey asked.

“Why don’t we all go surfing?” Olivia suggested. “I can be everyone’s personal coach.”

Alex snuggled close to her and rubbed her nose against her cheek. “As long as I get the most coaching.”

“That sounds cool, Liv,” Casey said.

“I agree. We can’t just let Alex have all the fun out in the waves,” Serena added.

“I’m surprised they don’t have Tweety surfboards,” Casey joked.

Olivia gave her a stern look. “Don’t give her any ideas!”

“We should look for one!” Alex exclaimed. “Or maybe I could get one custom made…”

Olivia slapped her hand to her forehead. “Great, Casey. Look at what you’ve started.” She looked at Alex. “Baby, I love you but if you get a Tweety surfboard, I will not be caught within 20 feet of you in the water.”

Alex folded her arms and pouted. “You wouldn’t leave me all alone with the big, bad waves, now would you?”

Olivia sat up. “Baby…not the pout.”

Alex just pouted harder. Olivia pulled her into her lap and said, “Oh, you. So cute.”

“She’s melllllllllting, mellllllllllllllllllllting,” Casey teased in her best Wicked Witch of the West voice.

Olivia rolled her eyes and said, “Oh, please, Casey. I’ve seen you melt, too when Serena gives you the look.”

Alex grinned at Casey. “Busted.”

Casey blushed. “I can’t help it. It’s those baby blues of hers.”

Serena smiled brightly and gave her a kiss. “Gotta be good for something.”

Alex got up and stretched. “I’ll be back. I’m gonna go wash the Abbie cooties off me.”

“Ew! Yeah, don’t blame ya,” Casey said.

“Yeah, I’m sure Liv would appreciate that before she gets her um…massage,” Serena added.

Alex laughed and shook her head. Walking backwards to the bathroom, she said, “I can trust that all three of you will behave while I’m gone?”

Olivia smiled. “What are you talkin’ about? I’m always an angel.”

Casey snorted. “Yes, I’m sure.”

Olivia tossed Alex the washcloth. “Hey, don’t forget this! I think my leg is about to freeze.”

Alex smirked. “How could I?”

While Alex was in the shower, Serena asked, “You think your mom has calmed down any?”

Olivia sighed. “It depends on your definition of calm. She’s probably just waiting for a confrontation. I want to avoid her for as long as possible.”

“I don’t blame you,” Casey said.

Olivia opened a pair of Starburst and popped a couple into her mouth. “I just wanna enjoy my vacation without anymore bad surprises.”

Fifteen minutes later, Alex came out in a towel. She opened her suitcase and groaned, “Ugh! Where are my pajamas?”

“The Tweety ones?” Serena asked. Casey snickered.

“Alex, you did pack 10 tons of clothes. I’m sure pajamas are in there somewhere,” Olivia joked.

Alex opened up the second suitcase. “Maybe they’re in here. I’m gonna unpack soon.”

Olivia laughed. “Yeah, that’s what you said earlier!”

Alex smirked. “You’re right. I’ll just do it now.” As she pulled out a few more items, she exclaimed, “Ooh, here are the jammies I was looking for!”

“I’m surprised they aren’t Tweety!” Casey said.

Alex rolled her eyes. “Can’t Tweety ever get any love?”

“I’m sure you give him plenty,” Casey replied.

Alex went into the bathroom to put on her pajamas and then came out and started putting her clothes and underwear in the closet and drawers. “Hey, baby, I’m gonna unpack yours, too. You don’t mind, do you?”

Olivia leaned back against the pillows and folded her arms behind her head. “Mind? Are you kidding? Having someone unpack my stuff for me? Less work for me.”

“Aww, isn’t Alex sweet?” Serena said.

When Alex finished, she returned to the bed and cuddled up to Olivia. Olivia wrapped her arm around her and said, “Mmm…you smell nice.”

Casey looked at Serena. “I think they’re starting foreplay.”

Serena laughed. “Yeah. Time to go. I’m getting a little tired anyway. Plotting and scheming are quite exhausting.”

Alex placed her hand on Olivia’s chest and said, “Thanks for helping us pull that off.”

Olivia sighed happily. “Payback is definitely sweet. We couldn’t have done it without you guys.”

Casey got off the bed and took Serena’s hand. “Hey, isn’t that what friends are for?” she asked, her green eyes sparkling.

Olivia smiled at her. “Yep.”

Chapter 62 (Part 1)

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 20:56:40 GMT

Title: Nichya (No One's)
Pairing: Alex/Olivia; Serena/Casey
Fandom: Law and Order SVU
Rating: PG-13/R
Disclaimer: All characters are the property of Dick Wolf and NBC (except for the few I created).
Author's Notes: Olivia's look is from first season SVU; Alex's look is without the bangs. Nichya is Russian for "No One's."
Summary: Alternate Universe (A/U)--Sequel to "Fear Is the Enemy." Alex and Olivia are truly no one's but each other's, and they vow to let nothing tear them apart. But how long can they keep their relationship from their parents? What happens when unexpected obstacles are thrown into their path?

Chapter 62: Payback

“Ok, I sent Abbie the text,” Alex said. “Just waiting for her to respond.”

“We need to make sure we’ve got everything down pat,” Olivia said. “You and I will pretend to be fighting right before she’s scheduled to meet you. We want her to be in a position to eavesdrop.”

Alex smiled. “I’m glad it’s just a pretend fight this time.”

“Me, too,” Olivia replied. “So then you’ll go off and pretend to cry and she’ll be waiting for you. You’ll spill your guts, she’ll try to comfort you and make her sordid move, blah blah.”

Alex’s phone beeped a few minutes later. “Ok, she texted back.”

“What’d she say?” Serena asked.

“She said she would like to meet up and thinks a civil chat is long overdue,” Alex replied, showing her the message. “Where should I suggest?”

“Outside the game room on the 4^th floor,” Olivia said. “No one should be there at this time of night.”

“Tell her the entrance farthest from the elevator,” Casey said. “It’s in a secluded corner and will give you more privacy.”

“Ok,” Alex said, composing the text. “Sent.”

Her phone soon beeped again. “She’s game, no pun intended,” Alex said with a smile. “She wants to meet there in 10 minutes.”

“Good, that gives us plenty of time to get down there first,” Olivia said. “We’ll all hide. Then when it’s almost time for her to get there, Alex and I will come out of hiding and start arguing by the elevator.” She got up off the bed and grabbed Alex’s digital camcorder. She gave it to Casey. “Come on.”

They all left the hotel room and took the elevator down to the 4^th floor. “I predict this will go flawlessly,” Casey said as they gathered behind the huge plants in the hallway on the left side of the game room.

“It should,” Olivia said. “Abbie will enter from the opposite hallway since it’s closest to their room, so she won’t see us. On the off chance she comes this way, these plants will hide us.”

“And we can still see her,” Alex said with a grin. “I kinda feel like a special agent.”

Serena looked at her watch a few minutes later and said, “We have about 2 minutes before she’s supposed to meet you. She’s probably close.”

“Got the cam ready?” Alex asked.

“Yep,” Casey said.

“You don’t think she’ll be late, do you?” Alex asked.

“Nope,” Olivia said. “If it involves you, she’ll definitely be punctual, maybe even a little early.”

“Ok, so let’s go near the game room and start our fake fight,” Alex said, stepping from behind the plants into the open.

Olivia nodded and took a deep breath. She followed her and began, “Alex, why do you want to meet up with her?”

Alex stopped at the elevator and turned around. “I think we need to settle our differences. You know, reach some common ground.”

“You honestly think that’s a good idea?”

“Yes, Liv! Maybe if we talk about our issues we can come to a compromise instead of having this never-ending feud.”

“Alex, you can’t compromise with someone like her! She has no conscience!”

“Come on, Liv! She’s not that bad. Even Anne Frank believed that everyone was good at heart.”

“Yeah, well she wasn’t talking about Abbie Carmichael!”

“Liv, you don’t know her! You only see this side of her! The girl I dated was warm and funny and sweet—”

“And she cheated on you!” Olivia interrupted. “After you’d only been dating a couple weeks!”

Alex sighed. “It still doesn’t mean she’s a bad person overall. Even good people do bad things sometimes.”

“Why are you defending Abbie? Look at all she’s done to hurt us! Look at how many fights she’s caused between us!”

“I’m not defending her!”

“Yes, you are! Sometimes I’m confused as to who is really your girlfriend!”

“I don’t like her anymore!”

“Really?” Olivia said, raising her voice. “You can’t seem to stop talking about her! Maybe you do really still have feelings for her!”

“You know that’s not true!” Alex yelled.

“I don’t want you meeting with her,” Olivia ordered. She grabbed her arm and said, “Let’s go back to our room.”

Alex yanked her arm away. “Why are you trying to control me? I’m my own person, Liv!”

Olivia threw her hands up in exasperation. “See! That’s what I’m talking about! Ever since Abbie came to our school, you’ve acted different!”

“How so?”

“You know how!” Olivia accused.

Alex folded her arms. “No, I’m afraid you’ll have to enlighten me.”

“Well, let’s see,” Olivia said, trying to come up with lies off the top of her head. “You get offended when I insult Abbie, you stick up for her, you try to sneak glances her way when you think I’m not looking, you check her myspace and livejournal, you show less affection for me, you want to have sex less often…the list goes on and on.”

“I do not!”

“Do, too! If you want to be with her, just tell me so we can end this now and my heart will be spared!”

“I can’t believe you!” Alex screamed, running off.

“That’s right, Alex! Run away when you can’t handle the truth!” Olivia called after her. She shook her head and walked back down the hall.

“That wasn’t bad for improv, Liv,” Casey said.

Olivia shrugged. “What can I say? I’m quick on my toes.”

“Ok, I know Abbie has to be at their meeting spot,” Serena said. “She was probably thrilled to hear the fight. Alex will be in tears and everything should fall right into place. Casey, you rush into position and make sure she can’t see you. The quickest way is by cutting through the exercise room. You need to have a superb recording angle. Liv and I will meet you shortly.”

“Got it, babe,” Casey said, giving her a quick kiss on the lips before running off.

As soon as Alex rounded the corner, Abbie was there sure enough. “What’s wrong?” she asked, pretending to not know a thing.

“Liv and I just had a huge fight,” Alex said, wiping away a tear.

“What were you guys fighting about?” Abbie asked, trying to appear concerned.

Alex sniffled. “Well, it was over you.”

“Me?” Abbie asked, secretly jumping for joy inside.

“Yeah…Liv accused me of still having feelings for you. She said it’s the main reason we fight all the time. But I just wanted her to understand that maybe talking to you was a good thing, you know? This fighting between us has to end. Now I feel like I have no one. I know she’s gonna tell Serena and Casey and they’ll take her side.”

Abbie started rubbing her shoulders. “It’s ok, Alex. Whenever you need me, I’m here.”

“I miss this side of you,” Alex said softly, touching her arm. “The sweet Abbie.”

Abbie brushed some hair back from her face and let her fingertips linger on her cheek. “I know I’ve done some shitty stuff to you and Liv, but I believe in fighting for the one I love.”

“Is that why you sent that email outing Liv to her mom? Abbie, she could get in a lot of trouble. Her safety is at risk.”

“Yes, because to me no price is too much to pay if it means getting you back.”

Alex looked down. “Wow…um, I don’t quite know what to say.”

“You don’t have to say anything,” Abbie said, moving in close. She ran her thumb down Alex’s lips.

Alex tried not to panic. “Um, Abbie…I don’t think we should—”

“Shh,” Abbie said. She leaned in to kiss her but Alex turned her head.

“Abbie…we shouldn’t,” Alex insisted.

Abbie ran her hand up Alex’s thigh. “Don’t be so tense. We both want this. I can tell.”

“I’m gonna kill her right now!” Olivia whispered harshly.

“No!” Serena said, grabbing her arm. “We need to get more on video!”

“I agree, Liv,” Casey replied quietly, holding the camera steady. “We need Abbie to incriminate herself a little more.”

“Do you really love me?” Alex asked, stalling.

“Yes,” Abbie breathed. “It’s always been you.”

“But what about Lexie? Don’t you love her, too?”

“No,” Abbie said, shaking her head. “I like her, but she’s just a crush. Something to get my mind off you.”

“I…I can’t do this to Liv,” Alex said.

“Forget about her,” Abbie whispered. “It’s just you and me now.” When she still saw Alex’s reservations, she said, “Perhaps I can do a little coaxing…” She unbuttoned several buttons to her shirt so her cleavage was revealed. “Remember how much fun you had playing with these?”

Alex looked down at her chest. “They are nice.”

Abbie smiled. “Good to hear.” She continued to rub her thigh as she began softly kissing her neck.

“Mmm…” Alex moaned, pretending to enjoy it and trying not to shudder in revulsion. She ran a hand through Abbie’s long dark hair and down her back.

“You like that?” Abbie asked, slipping her hand under Alex’s shirt and rubbing her stomach. “Just like old times.” Her hand slowly made its way up to her bra cup.

“I’m stopping this right now!” Olivia announced.

Serena grabbed her arm again. “No, just wait a little bit longer, Liv!”

Olivia glared at her. “Would you be able to stand there and watch Derek mack on Casey to get her back? No? Didn’t think so.”

“Liv, seriously. Just wait, ok?” Serena begged.

Abbie reached around her back to unlatch her bra. “Abbie, wait,” Alex ordered.

Abbie looked confused. “What’s wrong?”

“It’s just…this is all happening so fast,” Alex responded. “It doesn’t seem quite real.”

Abbie stroked her cheek. “Don’t fight it this time.”

She leaned in again to brush her lips as she successfully unlatched her bra. She was so close when Olivia shouted, “Kiss her and die, bitch!”

Chapter 61 (Part 2)

Sun, 19 Oct 2008 00:15:58 GMT

When they arrived at the hotel, Casey said, “Let us just put our bags up and we’ll come right over, ok?”

“Ok,” Alex said.

Olivia swiped her card to open the door to their hotel room. “No freaky stuff, you two!”

Casey smirked. “Well, we can’t promise you that.”

Alex followed Olivia inside and put her things down on the bed. Then she took off her flip flops and fell backwards. “Man, does this bed feel good.”

Olivia laughed. “You’ve been in it practically all day!”

“Yeah…but my eyes were closed instead of gazing at you,” Alex responded, leaning in for a kiss.

Olivia welcomed Alex’s warm lips, soft and full against her own. She pulled her gently on top of her and began caressing her shoulders and back.

Casey and Serena came in a couple minutes later. “Hey! You guys tell us no freaky stuff and it’s you going at it!” Serena accused.

Regretfully, Alex got off Olivia and wiped her mouth. “Way to scare us, guys!”

Casey jumped on the bed beside them and was joined by her girlfriend. She opened Alex’s bag to see what she’d bought. “No. Tell me she did not get a Tweety cover for her steering wheel!” she exclaimed.

Olivia looked at her. “You must not know her very well.”

“Let me see that,” Serena said, taking it from Casey. After examining it, she said, “Wow, Alex. Just…wow.”

Casey pulled the cap out and put it on Serena. “I dare you to wear this to school and keep it on all day.”

Serena took off the cap and replied, “Not in this lifetime.”

“Well, while you guys continue to pile on your Tweety hate, I’m gonna check my email,” Alex said. She went over to the desk, picked up her laptop, and then returned to the bed.

“She’s about to register with Tweetyholics Anonymous,” Casey teased.

Serena slapped her thigh with the back of her hand. “Baby, Liv’s right here. That might be a sensitive subject for her.”

Casey threw a hand to her mouth. “Oh, Liv. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean any offense.”

Olivia waved her off. “Don’t be silly. None taken.”

Alex logged in and rolled her eyes. “Why do I have so many dumb emails? There’s like 50 of them! They call it Spring Break for a reason.”

Olivia ruffled her hair. “You’re a popular chick.”

Alex smirked. “Ooh, wait! Here’s one from Mom.”

“She’s probably telling us not to have sex,” Olivia said dryly.

Serena laughed. “Yeah, a lotta good that’ll do!”

Alex opened the email and started to read.

Alex,

You and Olivia need to be more careful. Serena came over this afternoon and she was very upset. Someone had sent an email with photos of the two of you being sexually inappropriate on the beach. I tried to calm her down, but she refused to listen to any rationale. She told me that she never would’ve let Olivia vacation with you if she’d known the two of you were involved. She left even angrier and was determined to find out information about Olivia’s past relationships. Be on your guard and don’t hesitate to call me if any problems arise.

Mom

All the blood had drained from her face by the time she finished. “What’s wrong, sweetie?” Olivia asked, becoming alarmed.

Alex turned her laptop in her direction. “Look at what she sent yesterday.”

Casey and Serena moved behind Olivia so they could read over her shoulder. “Oh my god,” Serena murmured.

For the longest time, Olivia didn’t say anything. Then she slammed her fist on the mattress. “Fuck! I’m going to kill that bitch, Abbie!”

“Whoa, Liv. Calm down. Don’t get yourself into any trouble because of her,” Serena said.

Gritting her teeth, Olivia shook her head. “No. She’s gone on far too long without suffering the consequences. And now she’s gonna pay.”

“Why won’t she just leave you two alone?” Casey asked incredulously. “Doesn’t she realize that she’s never gonna get another chance with Alex?”

“Denial,” Serena said. “It’s pretty pathetic, really.”

“Shit! My mom is gonna go snooping through my room if she doesn’t get completely hammered so she doesn’t have to deal with the reality of her gay daughter first!” Olivia yelled dejectedly.

Alex rubbed her shoulder comfortingly. “No, she won’t, sweetie. Don’t panic. And you hide all the important stuff so well that she could search all night and wouldn’t find anything substantive.”

“Don’t be so sure about that,” Olivia mumbled. “I don’t want her destroying anything you’ve given me—like the scrapbook.”

Alex kissed her cheek. “It’s under lock and key. We made sure of that after my mom came across my lingerie. Don’t worry, honey.”

“Your mom found your lingerie?” Casey asked, a look of horror on her face.

“Um…yeah. It was before we came out to her. Long story. We need to come up with a game plan on stopping Abbie.”

“I already have one,” Olivia grumbled. “It includes my fist.”

“I agree with Serena, Liv,” Casey said. “Abbie is so not worth fighting. But there are other ways you can get her back that won’t get you in trouble.”

“Sending shit to my fucking mother is beyond crossing the line!” Olivia yelled. “She had no right to out us! So maybe having the living shit beaten out of her will make her think twice before doing something like this again.”

“We know, Liv,” Serena replied. “But we need to think this through rationally.”

“She needs to be stopped,” Alex said. “We should blackmail her.”

“I don’t wanna go home,” Olivia said quietly. “Then I’ll have to deal with my mom.”

“But you’re staying with us, remember?” Alex replied.

“I know. But that won’t stop her from marching over. And eventually I’m gonna have to go back.”

“Then what’ll happen?” Serena asked fearfully.

Olivia shook her head slowly. “I don’t know,” she murmured. “But it won’t be good.”

Alex’s lower lip started trembling. “I can’t believe this. She’s not gonna stop until she’s split us up. She knew how scared you were about coming out to your mom. It just seems like…like every time we get ok, something just—” Her voice broke. “God, I can’t lose you again!”

Olivia brushed her tears away and looked deeply into her eyes. “Alex, I’m not going anywhere. Abbie wants to tear us apart. She knows how I freaked out before and we broke up and she’s banking on it happening again. I’m not the same person I was several months ago. Yeah, I’m scared shitless. But I made a promise that I’d stick by your side even when times got rough, and I plan on keeping it.”

Alex smiled and threw her arms around her neck. “Oh, Liv!” she gasped.

“Aww, you guys are bringing tears to my eyes!” Serena said.

“Mine, too!” Casey agreed.

“Our hearts are one, remember?” Olivia asked, kissing Alex’s forehead reassuringly. “One heart, one beat.”

Alex nodded and laid her head on her shoulder. “Yeah.”

“So what are we gonna do about Abbie?” Serena asked.

“We need to use Abbie’s pursuit of Alex as leverage,” Casey suggested.

“Yeah, you guys remember how Lexie told me she hated that Abbie was so hung up on Alex? Well, we need to get proof to show her somehow. I’m sure Abbie has used her powers of manipulation to assure Lexie she’s over Alex and nothing will happen, but we need to trap her,” Olivia said.

“Maybe by using Alex as bait?” Casey asked.

“Yeah,” Serena said. “Alex can tell her she wants to talk to her. Then when they meet, she can pretend to still have feelings for her. She can say she was just denying them because of Liv but now she has to face them.”

“That makes me nervous,” Alex said. “I don’t want her forcing a kiss on me.”

“We’ll be right around the corner, babe,” Olivia assured her. “If she goes too far, I’ll be there to whip her ass all over this beach.”

“You really think she’d fall for that?” Alex asked.

“She’ll do anything to get a chance with you,” Olivia said. “She doesn’t care whether you’re lying through your teeth. But she’s too dumb to figure that out since apparently she’s already deluded herself into thinking you secretly still have feelings anyway.”

“So how are we gonna orchestrate all this?” Alex asked.

Olivia gave a wicked smile. “I know just the way.”

Nichya: Chapter 61 (Part 1)

Sun, 19 Oct 2008 00:09:29 GMT

Title: Nichya (No One's)
Pairing: Alex/Olivia; Serena/Casey
Fandom: Law and Order SVU
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: All characters are the property of Dick Wolf and NBC (except for the few I created).
Author's Notes: Olivia's look is from first season SVU; Alex's look is without the bangs. Nichya is Russian for "No One's."
Summary: Alternate Universe (A/U)--Sequel to "Fear Is the Enemy." Alex and Olivia are truly no one's but each other's, and they vow to let nothing tear them apart. But how long can they keep their relationship from their parents? What happens when unexpected obstacles are thrown into their path?

Chapter 61: Brown Eyed Girl

Alex awoke a few hours later. Olivia was watching tv. She looked down at her and stroked her cheek. “Have a good nap?”

Alex smiled, happy that Olivia hadn’t left her side. “Yeah. But I hate I’ve wasted half the day.” Her smile slowly faded. “Half your day,” she murmured softly.

“Oh well, we have plenty days left,” Olivia assured her. “It’s only Sunday.”

Alex suppressed a yawn. “Yeah.” She walked her fingers up her stomach and added, “You look sexy.”

Olivia smirked and bit into another chip. “Eating Doritos is the new sexy.”

“Sweetie, you didn’t order room service?”

“I thought I’d wait on you and just snack in the meantime.”

Alex sat up. “Baby, you didn’t have to be without because of me. If you’d wanted, you could’ve taken my car to get something. I’m sure the pokies were hungry,” she said, rubbing her hand across her chest.

Olivia laughed. “They’ve been asleep most of the day.”

“What do you wanna do tonight? Still wanna check out that concert?”

Olivia shook her head. “Nah. There will be another later in the week. We should see what Serena and Casey’s plans are.”

“Think they’re still in their room?”

“Probably not,” Olivia said, eating another chip. She offered one to Alex, who took it happily into her mouth.

“We can call them,” Alex replied after she finished chewing. Thinking about how angry they were with her earlier, she amended her statement and said, “Well…you can call.” She ate another chip and asked, “You think they hate me?”

“No, sweetie. All friends fight.”

“But I was really an ass,” Alex replied remorsefully.

“It will all blow over,” Olivia promised, rubbing her back.

“I don’t want you to still be mad at me either,” Alex said sadly.

“Baby, I’m not mad,” Olivia said, picking up the remote to change the channel.

Alex gently turned her face back to her. “Yes, you are. It’s ok. I understand. And if you’re not still angry, you’re still hurt, which is just as bad.”

Olivia sighed. “Ok, I am still hurt.”

“I promise I’ll make it up to you,” Alex insisted, kissing her softly on the cheek.

Those words were comforting to Olivia, and she was happy that for once she wasn’t the one having to say them to Alex. “I know.”

“You know…but do you really believe?”

“Yes. We all know I can’t resist your charms for too long.”

Alex giggled. “Well, I can’t resist yours either!” She wrapped her arms around her waist and added, “Thank you for taking care of me earlier.”

Olivia kissed her on the forehead and replied, “You’re welcome.” She picked up her cell phone and added, “I’ll call them to see where they are.”

“Ok.”

A few minutes later, she said, “They’re at some store on the boardwalk. Said they’ll be back in half an hour or so. They’ll call.”

“Have they eaten?”

“Yeah. They went to some pizzeria. Casey told me to go ahead and get some food if I wanted.”

“You wanna go somewhere or order something here?”

“Why don’t we go out and get a little sunlight? Well, what’s left of it.”

“Ok, let me get changed,” Alex said.

“Yeah, I need to as well,” Olivia replied.

About 10 minutes later, they were walking down the boardwalk hand in hand. “Think we’ll bump into Serena and Casey?” Alex asked.

“It’s possible,” Olivia replied, reaching into her pocket and slipping on her shades. “I can’t believe it. The sun will go down in about an hour and it’s still blazing out here.”

Alex smiled. “You look very sexy in your shades.”

Olivia grinned. “Why, thanks, babe.”

They walked a bit farther before Alex stopped and pointed at a particular store. “Ooh! Let’s go in there.”

“Sweetheart, it has cartoon paraphernalia.”

“I know,” Alex said, grinning and pulling her inside.

Olivia playfully rolled her eyes. “Uh oh. I know what’s comin’ now.”

Alex led them straight over to the Looney Tunes section. “Look at all this amazing stuff!” She picked up a cap that had Tweety on it and put it on Olivia. “You look totally hot.”

Olivia smirked. “I don’t know how hot I can look with Tweety sitting on my head.”

“And look over here!” Alex said, pulling her into the corner. “There’s an inflatable Tweety.”

Olivia opened her mouth to say something smart and Alex warned, “I know where you’re going. Don’t even say it.”

Olivia laughed. “Can read me like a book, huh?” Suddenly her eye caught a Tweety steering wheel cover.

Alex immediately followed her gaze and her entire face lit up. “I have to get it!”

Olivia shook her head. “Oh, boy.”

“Aw, it’s perfect, Liv! Now I can always remember our first Spring Break together!”

Olivia had to smile as Alex picked it up. “You’re so cute.”

“Should I get one or two?”

Olivia shifted her eyes upward and pretended to think. “Let’s keep at least one vehicle untainted.”

Alex swatted her shoulder playfully. “Are you saying Tweety would somehow cramp our style in a convertible?”

“That’s exactly what I’m saying,” Olivia answered. “Completely unsexy.”

Alex gasped. “Quel horreur!”

Olivia looked at her watch. “As much as I’d love to spend hours more ogling Tweety, my stomach has started to growl. Where do you wanna eat?”

“How ’bout Johnny Rockets?” Alex proposed.

“Sounds good.”

“Ok. Just let me check out and we can go,” Alex replied.

“We could do it quicker if you just charged everything Tweety to your credit cards and had it all delivered to your room later,” Olivia teased.

That warranted her another swat from Alex. “I do not plan on buying one of everything! Just the cap and the wheel cover.”

“Riiiiiiiiiiiight,” Olivia said.

After Alex checked out, they went to Johnny Rockets and slid into a booth. “I’ll be right with you,” the waitress told them.

Olivia picked up a menu. “I know I just had one the other night, but man, I’m really craving a big juicy burger.”

“I’ll have whatever you’re having,” Alex told her.

“Ok,” Olivia replied, continuing to scan the menu. When the waitress returned, she looked at her and said, “We’ll have two Rocket Doubles, two orders of fries, and two root beer floats.”

After the waitress left with their orders, Alex pulled out a nickel and inserted it into the little jukebox on their table. “What do you wanna listen to?”

Olivia flipped through the pages and shrugged. “Eh…doesn’t matter to me.”

Alex turned back a couple pages and a spark came to her eyes. “I found the perfect song.”

“What is it?”

“Van Morrison’s ‘Brown Eyed Girl,’” Alex responded, smiling and winking at her.

Olivia grinned, pleased that she had chosen to dedicate a song to her. “Nice.”

As the song played, Alex picked up a ketchup bottle and started singing to Olivia. “Skipping and a jumping in the misty morning fog with our hearts a thumpin’ and you, my brown eyed girl. You, my brown eyed girl.”

Olivia laughed and shook her head. “Alex, baby, you’re somethin’ else.”

Alex stood up and started dancing from side to side around her as she sang. Other people turned around and watched in amusement. Even a few of the waitresses momentarily stopped what they were doing.

Alex was aware that she had an audience but this didn’t bother her in the slightest. “Standing in the sunlight laughing, hiding behind a rainbow’s wall. Slipping and sliding all along the waterfall with you, my brown eyed girl. You, my brown eyed girl.”

Olivia wished Serena, Casey, Elliot, and Kathy were all there to witness it. She’d never seen Alex so goofy but serious at once—and she loved every bit of it.

Alex brushed a lock of hair back from Olivia’s face and twirled around. She leaned in close and continued, “Sometime I’m overcome thinking ’bout making love in the green grass behind the stadium with you, my brown eyed girl. You, my brown eyed girl.”

The way Alex looked at her with such tenderness as she sang made Olivia warm all over. She had already forgiven her, but if she hadn’t, this would’ve certainly done the trick.

“Sha la la la la la la la la la la te da,” Alex sang, grabbing Olivia’s hand.

When the song ended, people at tables around them started clapping and hooting. Olivia blushed profusely. Alex gave her a big kiss on the cheek. “I love you,” she said, putting the ketchup bottle back on the table.

“I love you, too,” Olivia responded, kissing her back. “No one’s ever done something so cute and adorable for me!”

Their waitress came over with their root beer floats. “That was quite a performance,” she said with a grin. “You both get brownie sundaes on the house.”

“Thank you!” Alex and Olivia said in unison.

“No problem,” the waitress said. “Your burgers should be up in a few minutes.”

“It’s so exciting to get free dessert,” Olivia said.

Alex laughed. “Yeah. Too bad we can’t get it right now!”

“You know, I wish I’d had a video camera. I’d watch it whenever I needed a good laugh.”

“Hey now! That was from the bottom of my heart!”

Olivia smiled and rubbed her hand across the table. “I know. I loved it. I was just teasing, babe.”

Alex pulled her straw out of her float and licked the ice cream off it. “Mmm….”

Olivia took a long sip of her own float. Alex slipped a foot out of one of her flip flops and let it caress hers. “That tickles,” Olivia giggled.

“It’s supposed to,” Alex said, dipping her finger in the foam and wiping it on Olivia’s nose.

Olivia stuck her tongue out and tried to make it reach her nose. Alex laughed and asked, “In a bind, Liv?”

Olivia finally settled for wiping it off with a napkin. “Not anymore.”

The waitress returned with their burgers and fries. “Enjoy your meal, girls.”

“We should leave her a nice tip,” Alex suggested.

“I agree. She’s pretty nice. And there’s an added bonus that she’s not trying to get in either of our pants.”

Alex snorted. “Yeah, tell me about it.” She took a huge bite of her burger.

Olivia raised an eyebrow. “Hungry, babe?”

“Hell yeah! I don’t know how I made it without breakfast or lunch!”

Olivia chuckled and munched on a fry. “I don’t know either.” She dipped another into the ketchup that was already on the plate and said, “I kinda don’t wanna mess up the smiley face.”

“Oh, I know!” Alex agreed. “Me either.”

A short while later, the waitress brought the check and their brownie sundaes. “There you go. Have a good evening.”

After saying their thanks, they began eating their desserts. Alex scooped up some of her sundae and fed some to Olivia. “Good?”

“Very much so,” Olivia replied. “I could eat these all day.”

“You probably wouldn’t be able to surf very well on such a full stomach,” Alex joked.

“Speaking of which, you wanna give it another go tomorrow?” Olivia asked, pushing a piece of brownie into some chocolate syrup.

Alex nodded. “I’d love to!” She took a bite of her sundae and said, “The cold ice cream and warm brownie is the perfect combination!”

“I agree,” Olivia replied. She ran a streak of ice cream down Alex’s cheek. “So is the cold ice cream and warm cheek.”

Alex laughed. “Anything for you, baby.”

After they left the restaurant, they decided to check out a few more places on the boardwalk. “Serena and Casey still haven’t called yet. Wonder where they are,” Alex said.

“They’re probably off somewhere making out,” Olivia replied.

“Or making love,” Alex said. She took off Olivia’s shades and put them on herself. “I can’t say I’d mind that one.”

“You wanna make love with my shades on?”

Alex shrugged and grinned. “What can I say? They’re hot.”

A few minutes later they spotted them coming out of a clothing store. “Hey lovebirds!” Olivia yelled.

Casey and Serena turned around and waited for them to approach. “Hey, what have you two been up to?” Casey asked.

“Just a little shopping,” Alex said, taking off Olivia’s shades.

Olivia grinned. “And you missed Alex singing to me in front of everyone at Johnny Rockets.”

Both Serena and Casey’s eyes almost bulged out of their heads. “Really?” Serena asked. “You’re kidding, right?”

“Not at all,” Alex replied.

“Yep, she put on quite a show,” Olivia said, placing a hand proudly on her back.

“Damn!” Casey exclaimed, snapping her fingers. “We always miss the good stuff!”

“What did you sing?” Serena inquired.

“‘Brown Eyed Girl,’” Alex answered.

Casey smiled. “That’s a pretty cool song.”

“And very fitting for Liv,” Serena added.

“So I take it all is well between you two?” Casey asked as they started walking back to the hotel.

Olivia gave Alex a reassuring smile and wrapped an arm around her pale shoulders. “Couldn’t be better.”

Alex was elated to hear her say that. She felt like a huge burden had been lifted from her heart. “I’m so lucky to have you,” she said softly.

Olivia gave her a quick kiss on the lips. “And I you.”

“Aww!” Serena and Casey said together.

Alex looked at them and asked, “Are we ok, guys?”

Casey looked at Serena and then back at Alex. “Yeah,” she answered.

Serena reached out and touched her shoulder. “You’ve been my best friend since kindergarten. We’ve had our share of fights. I won’t desert you for a mistake. You’re human.”

“Thanks, guys,” Alex said, giving them both a hug.

Chapter 36 (Part 2)

Wed, 01 Oct 2008 03:58:33 GMT

Several minutes later, Alex came out of the bathroom in nothing but a towel. Olivia put the book she was reading facedown on the nightstand. How does she manage to look so stunning all the time? she wondered.

Alex noticed her gaze. “If you want, I could give you a closer look.”

Olivia smiled. “Think I’ll take a rain check.”

Alex pulled one of her NYPD shirts out of a drawer and went back into the bathroom to blow-dry her hair. When she came out, she said, “You have no idea how good that shower felt.”

“Nothin’ like a nice hot shower after a long day.”

“You said it,” Alex agreed. As she got in bed beside her, the thought of Zoe being there crossed her mind. She frowned and quickly forced the troubling thought out. Nothing will ruin my night, she vowed. Besides, she currently had much bigger problems than Zoe to worry about.

Olivia noticed her vacant look. “Somethin’ up?”

Alex shook her head quickly. “No. I was just…” She flashed a smile. “It doesn’t matter. What are your plans for the weekend?”

“Uh…haven’t made any,” Olivia answered.

“Wanna do something?” Alex asked hopefully.

“As long as it involves all our clothes,” Olivia replied.

Alex laughed. “How does a movie sound?”

“Good. I’ll call you when I get off from work. Hopefully it won’t be too late.”

Alex placed a hand on her side. “I don’t mind catching a late one.”

Olivia scooted closer to her. “We can share a big container of popcorn.”

“I want extra butter,” Alex replied, starting to drum her fingers.

Olivia looked down at her movements. “Well, aren’t you the fidgety one tonight?”

“Just excited, I guess. It’s been awhile since I’ve had such a good time.”

“Ah, the simple pleasures, huh?”

“Sometimes I think life’s better that way,” Alex responded.

“I do, too,” Olivia agreed, putting her hand on Alex’s waist. She let her hand travel a bit and added, “So I guess someone did decide to go commando.”

“You told me I could,” Alex replied, a glint of mischief in her eye. As Olivia’s hand continued to rest on her hip, she felt her body get warmer. She cursed the cotton of the shirt which provided a barrier between her bare skin and Olivia’s fingers. She chuckled at the reactions she could always set off inside her, regardless of whether the touch was innocent or sensual in nature. However, this was one of those times that the lines were blurred.

“What’s so funny?” Olivia wondered.

“I’d just like to let you know that I’m about to jump out of my skin right now.”

Olivia raised an eyebrow. “Why is that?”

Alex ran a finger down her lips. “You have no clue how hard it is to not be able to kiss you.”

Blushing at the contact, Olivia slowly licked her lips. “How hard is it now?”

Alex leaned in and replied, “You sure you wanna find out?”

Olivia looked at her softly and said, “I love it when your hair falls over your shoulders.” She lightly brushed a hand through her long layers.

“Sure, Benson. Avoid the question.”

Olivia laughed. “That way I stay outta trouble.”

“Are you saying I’m trouble?” Alex breathed.

“With a capital T,” Olivia answered.

“I’ll take that as a compliment,” she replied. A sly smile danced on her lips.

“What are you up to?” Olivia said suspiciously.

“I think there should be a calendar of New York’s Finest—but just the female cops.”

Olivia laughed. “Oh really?”

“Yes. And I’d be the first to buy one. You’d have to autograph it.”

Olivia laughed harder. “Ok, if we ever make one, I’ll let ya know. So tell me. Just what would you like to see me wearing?”

Alex grinned and hoped that her arousal wouldn’t spread down her thighs. “Well…I imagine you sitting with your back against a wall in nothing but your dress blues. Actually, it wouldn’t be full uniform, just your shirt. It would be wide open and your breasts and stomach would be wet…and you’d have your badge barely covering your crotch.”

Olivia couldn’t help but be turned on at her idea. She decided to play along. “What month would I be?”

“How about my birthday month? May.”

“Well, if you’re good this year, I might act out this fantasy of yours on your special day.”

Alex felt her nipples tightening even more to match Olivia’s. “You mean that?”

Olivia nodded. “Emphasis on the ‘if you’re good’ part,” she responded with a waggle of her eyebrows. She didn’t want things to go too far, so she turned away from her and added, “Night.”

“Hey!” Alex protested, shaking her shoulder. “You can’t just leave it at that!”

“I decided to stop before both of us need cold showers. And considering how it’s absolutely freezing outside, I don’t think that’d be such a good idea for our health.”

“I’m sure our bodies pressed against each other would generate enough heat,” Alex replied, moving in close and wrapping her arm around her.

“Alex!” Olivia exclaimed.

“I can’t help it when I’m around you,” she said, her breath warm against her neck.

Olivia felt a tremor go through her body. “Your nipples are about to poke holes in my back.”

Alex laughed. “Is that all my fault, though?”

“Yes,” Olivia said quickly, trying to suppress a laugh.

“Well, I don’t mind taking the blame for that,” Alex replied. She kissed her softly on the cheek. “Don’t worry, I’ll be good.”

“For how long?” Olivia teased.

“We can negotiate in the morning,” Alex said, yawning.

“I guess the art of seduction is a tiring process, huh?”

Alex playfully pushed her shoulder. “Always the joker.”

Olivia closed her eyes. “It’s certainly one of my more endearing qualities, don’t you think?”

Alex closed her eyes, too and rested her chin on her shoulder. “Definitely.”